the year that was 2008...part 1.5

ahhhh!...i was on the very last line of the 2nd part of my review for the year and it all erased....aaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!

so you will just have to wait for part 2...i cant rewrite it now becuase i am almost to my stop and my eyes are burning (from working hard all day looking at all kinds of little numbers)...

i hope everyone has a fantastic new years eve celebration!!!

lets make 2009 a great one!!!

the year that was 2008...part 1

2008 is coming to a close...and with it i thought i would review the big events of the year...so here goes

january:
i was excited for 2007 to be over and move onto 2008...(sure i graduated and got a job and all that jazz...2007 was just an okay year for me)...in the beginning of the month i went to LA...i had a ton of fun there!...i went to the taping of the episode of dance machine that chris was in (and won!!!)...too bad it never made it to tv...the plug was pulled 2 days before it was scheduled to air...

february:
the giants beat the stupid patriots in the super bowl! yay!!!...another valentines day came and went with no valentine for me...

march:
i competed for the last time...i realized there is no such thing as spring break anymore...the bear collapsed...that was pretty scary cause i had no idea if i would have a job or not...its also pretty cool because its going to be a historical moment kids in the future are going to learn about...and i lived it...thankfully i was able to keep my job and make the transition to jp morgan...

april:
i had my first drink ever...haha...i know i'm slightly behind but i still dont really see the appeal of it...

may:
i turned 23!!!...i went to london!!!...another awesome trip for 2008...while there we did the typical touristy stuff and we saw girls aloud and BACKSTREET BOYS!!! (as i have stated numerous times before they are my fav!!!)...

june:
the last lm dance recital ever...=(...(i'm still sad about this one...i dont really like to think about it)...the 18th was the 5 year anniversary of when i graduated from high school...wow 5 years already...time flies...

thats it for part one...come back tomorrow to find out what happened durring the second half of the year in part 2!!

ttfn!!!

yay me!

well...christmas is over...=(...but i will say this years festivities were some of the best yet!...of course i always have fun with the fam...it always gets better!....oh and for the first time ever my secret santa predictions were correct!!! (hence the title of this blog...lol...)

i got all kinds of good stuff from santa!...but my fav by far is rock band 2 (which i purchased and opened the sunday before christmas)...it is so much fun...i am obsessed with the drums!...i always wanted to learn how to play the drums in real life but since thats never gonna happen this is close enough...i cant wait to get home tonight and play some more!!!...

umm i think thats it for now...but stay tuned for pics of my super top secret projects...and a 2008 year in review blog...

ttyl...happy blogging!!!...

christmas time!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!

i am super excited that its christmas today (yes i count christmas eve as christmas...duh...christmas is a 2 day holiday....i dont care what anyone else says...)

i had to go to work today...boo!....but i left early...yay! so now i am on my way home...i cant wait to get there and start my christmas festivities!!!...

now its time to make my official secret santa predictions...remember this is just my speculation...bassed on process of elimination, peoples reactions, proposed trades, and other forms of investigation...i could be completly wrong but maybe not...we will see tonight...

britt has kate
kate has hunter
hunter has trev
trev has meg
meg has steph
steph has deb
deb has ty
ty has me
i have cort
cort has britt

if my predictions are correct it will be the first time we make it all the way around with out breaking the chain...it will also be the first time i am 100% right...lol...i cant wait to find out!!!!....

i must be going now...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

twilight tuesday!

for today's twilight tuesday i want to talk about movie number 2...new moon!

the release date was announced and new moon will be in theaters november 20 2009...less than a year away!...this very exciting but i must admit that i am slightly concerned...is it just me or does that seem too short of a time span to put together an awesome movie...i dont know much about the process of movies but i thought that they took a long time to put together...

also they are switching directors...many people seem to be upset about this...i dont really mind...they switch directors for a lot of the harry potters and they all turn out okay...so i'm not really too worried about that...

i just hope that they dont stray too far off from the book...because the cullens arent in this one as much and it might ruien it if the movie tries to squeeze them in where they shouldnt be...while no on e likes it when they leave its something that needed to happen...like when corey and topenga broke up...i hate watching those episodes but i know they needed to happen...

i would also like to say that this will probably be my last twilight tuesday post for a while...i'm not saying that i will never have another twilight post...they just wont be as frequent...anything i have to say twilight related will come up on a tuesday but not all tuesday blogs will be twilight...wow i think i just said the same thing like ten different ways...lol...

christmas is TOMORROW!!!...if you arent GETTING EXCITED yet then you really should!!!

the storm was raging outside

hello bloggers...hope everyone had as great of a weekend as i did!!

i would like to start off by saying that friday i didnt get home until 8 thanks to the awesome njtransit...i really love it when my train is delayed an hour to kick off my weekend!...i'm glad that it wasnt an indication of how the rest of the weekend would go...

friday was a snowy snowy day...i LOVE the snow!...its so pretty and peaceful...it started to really feel like christmas...so after my train delay i went to brittos party...tons of fun there!...you can never go wrong with mocha cupcakes and a friendly game of catch phrase...(you say jam for yam...really ty?...lol)

saturday was our 5th annual christmas sleepover...we ended up not sleeping over becuase it started snowing againa and we didnt want to get stuck there...but we had fun anyway...we saw seven pounds...i really liked it and recomend for everyone to go see it but i say you should wait until the holiday season is over...it is a sad movie...lets face it not all movies can be happy pappy...this one just happens to one thats sad...and if you dont cry at some point durring it then you have no heart...so yeah go see it but maybe wait a couple of weeks...

sunday i went to best buy and friendlys with cort britt and dj...i bought rock band 2...so much fun!...we made my mom play with us...haha...she was our lead singer...i couldnt stop laughing!...good times!!!...i cant wait until i become awesome on the drums...i always wanted to learn how to play them and now i sorta can...

and that was pretty much my whole weekend...

christmas is in 2 days!!! GET EXCITED!!!

nothing new

i dont really have anything exciting to report on...i just didnt want to neglet my blogging duties...if i skip a few days here and there it leads to a downward spiral and before you know it i let months pass before my next entry...i really want to try to stay ontop of things...

lets see...all of my shows are on hiatus for winter break so nothing to report on there...i finished my christmas shopping...i only have to pick up a few cards and gift cards and something for mimi and thats it...i even started to wrap everything...so i'm way ahead of my usual time table...and really thats about it...

i have nothing else to say so i guess i'll get back to playing chuzzle...

and the winner of survivor gabon is...

BOB!!!

of course i wanted matty to win and he would have too if sugar didnt throw him under the bus by writting down his name at tribal council forcing the tie knowing he would never be able to beat bob in a fire making challange...

but since matty came in 4th place and was the last member of the jury i had to pick someone else for the win...and theres no doubt that bob is the rightful winner...the man went on a crazy winning streak winning 5 challanges in a row!...so yay for bob!

in other news i was mia since last wednesday becuase on thursday i went to see wintuk (those people did some crazy stunts!) on friday i went to jingle ball (the show was good...kanye west was on alittle too long but other than that everyone was amazing!) on saturday i went with my dad to get our christmas tree then we went dts then i worked on my last super top secret project (i'll post pics of all super top secret projects after christmas) and then on sunday i went to squishes little birthday party!...i cant beleive he is 2 already!...so yeah thats about alltill next time...

dear santa

hi santa it's me ashley...

i have been a good girl all year long...and when i say good girl i'm not talking just knid of good i'm talking saint like...it's not like i'm trying to impress you or anything its just my nature to be a sincerly good person...i always put the wants and needs of others before myself and just maybe its time to get some return on all the love i put out into the universe...so i ask pretty please with a cherry on top for you to grant my christmas wish...just like the song says: santa, bring me a man...

really any man will do ((beggers cant be choosers right)) but i do have some requirements and preferences...

requirements:
1)non-cheaters only please
2) between the ages of 22 and29
3) will not judge based on appearance
4) has a heart of gold

preferences:
1) has some type of dance ability or will at least try
2) republican
3) christian
4) is just as happy staying in as going out
5) likes the same type of tv and movies as i do (this isnt a hard one seeing as i like just about everything...lol...)
6) straight teeth!

and one last thing that is a completly non-important, will never happen in a million years but doesnt hurt to ask type of request...if he looks like kellen lutz or jensen ackels it would just be spectacular!!! (i'll even throw in some extra cookies for you!)

thanks for taking time to read my request...if this man i'm asking for could be wrapped up and under my tree on christmas morning that would be fabulous!!!...

thanks again santa!
merry christmas!

love always,
*ashley*

twilight tuesday!

as promised last week, for todays twilight tuesday i will be talking about why i love twilight ((the book)) so much!!!

1) its a love story at its core and deep down i am a hopeless romantic...the connection that edward and bella make with each other is the kind of love everyone wants to find...they belong together just like cory and topenga or ross and rachel...edward may not be your typical prince charming ((with him being a vampire and all)) he is still a complete gemtleman and sweeps bella off her feet...i know its just a story but the ordinary girl and the extraordinary boy falling in love gives me a little bit of hope for the future...

b) i am a sci-fi fan...a lot of my fav tv shows and movies are in that genre...so i love all the vampire stuff...everyone knows basic vampire ledgend but i love how different stories spin that ledgend different ways...its so fascinating to me...instead of burning in the sun the vampires in twilight sparkle and the vampires in supernatural just dont like it so many of them chose to party all night and sleep all day...its just cool...well i think so anyway

iii) the characters are easy to relate to...bella is a normal girl who goes to a normal high school with other normal teenagers...i'm sure everyone knows/knew a jessica stanley and a mike newton...just typical people...not like the characters on some shows that you just say come on people like that cant really exist...

well this is my stop...there are tons of other things i love but i didnt want to say anything too specific incase people havent read it yet...and if you havent read it i highly suggest that you do...

til next time...happy blogging!!!

all i have to give

this weekend was pretty much my only available shopping time between now and christmas...and shop i did...britt and i went out saturday fromnoon til about 7 or so...we got a lot done...i spent all kinds of money but its okay cause its for the people i love...i still have a few gifts left to buy and one major project for my squish a lish left to work on but overall this weekend was a success!!! = )

oh and of course dj found britt and me durring our shopping adventures...haha...my dad says no matter where we try to hide the kid always shows up...haha...anyway dj claims to have a guy for me but who knows with him...so we will just have to see what happens...

i must be going now...until next time happy blogging!

lady lurch

due to popular demand ((okay so it was only one request but its the only request i've ever gotten so how could i deny it)) the following is a parody i wrote to a blog written by the lady lurch about the annoying people who work at the kiosks at the mall ((if you would like to see the original blog by the lady lurch email me and i'll send it to you))...enjoy!!

I know I am not the only person irked by it, so I am pretty sure most of you will agree.....the stupid 23 year olds who think its an awesome idea to find themselves a 35 year old married man are THE MOST obnoxious, annoying, and pushy people I have ever seen! (and 2 years later they are even worse!!!)

I get that most people are stupid, and they are just not thinking, however, when you go to the gym, and you work out, should something or a certain someone interest you, you take a look and if there is a ring you STOP looking right? Oh, well that is just not good enough for these people. If a man is married you aren't afforded the OPTION to pursue him, yet they force themselves on him by their endless nagging. "Excuse me, do you have a wife…oh you do…its okay you can get rid of her and be with me instead” or "Excuse me, I’m a home wrecker" or "Please come back to my place and lie to your wife about it"

And now onto why these lady lurches complaints about the mall people are stupid:

A: its obvious you don’t need the sea salt lotion…you’re greasy enough as it is…do you really need to add to the problem???

B: last time I checked its not a crime to let little girls feel like a princess everyone in a while and if straightening their hair occasionally makes them feel special then what’s the problem???...i wonder if lady lurch wears her hair in its natural state the way god made it everyday…probably not…so again I ask whats the problem???...its not like the mall people or any one else is saying that the curls aren’t good enough…it’s the same concept as giving a little girl with natural straight hair some curls for the day…are you against that too???....maybe if someone treated her like a princess when she was small she wouldn’t be looking in all the wrong places today…

C: (and most importantly) they aren’t your kids!!!!...stop pretending that they are…how anyone could possibly think that someone soooo cute could be related to a lady lurch is way beyond my comprehension…I guess its best that the lady lurch practices saying “no” now because if she has children one day I cant imagine them being anywhere close to cute…maybe she will learn that when the people stop approaching her…

If any of you reading this are anything like a lady lurch I want you to grab something large and heavy, lift it high over your head, and then drop it.....because most likely after all was said and done, you are still waiting for your new man to become less of a cheating loser. You should feel really bad, it DOESN’T happen to best of us.

Please annoying lady lurch people, go find a single man like regular people do, and stop harassing people who are married and wanted to have a normal family life with no side projects in between. I would be most grateful, and if not I will be forced to carry pepper spray from this point forward.

i should have thought this through

so yesterday i thought i i had this brilliant idea...i decided to make all the titles of future blogs song titles or lines from songs...and here i am day 2 of this and i already dont know what to title the thing...i just stared at the blank screen for like 5 minutes and nothin...

since thursday is big tv night for me i was going to talk about the hotties of thursday night but i couldnt think of a good title for it...maybe blind fanatic but i think that would work better for when i talk about bsb or twilight cause while i like thursday night tv and i do say that jensen is my future husband i wouldnt say that i'm a fanatic about it...

so then i thought maybe i'll title it all i have to give and talk about the christmas shopping i need to do this weekend...but then i thought no that would be better for tomorrows entry...

so i went back tot wanting to talk about tonights tv (lets call it 3S from now on standing for survivor smallville and supernatural)...and i still cant come up with a good title...grrr...maybe it because i wanted to limit my self to only bsb songs...maybe i should widen my range to only songs on my ipod...i dont know...haha...why am i so frazzled over this???...

right now i have a temp title of "i should have thought this through"...this is not in anysong i know of...so now my mission is to think of a title that relates to my need to find a good title...haha!...wait a sec i'm listening to the call and it made me think that "it eats me from inside" could work...afterall i am going all kinds of crazy trying to find a good title...but maybe i should save that for something thats actually important that upsets me...like if dandrew wins TAR on sunday...that would def eat me from inside...haha...okay so thats not really important either...oh who am i kidding i never talk about anything real important...

i think i'm just gonna leave the title i have now and start back up with the song thing tomorrow...or maybe not...if its this difficult everytime i may need to go bak to lame titles...oh well...at least i can try right? right!...

good night and happy blogging!

there'll be fire when we dance

yeah i didnt have such a great day at work today...something on one of the reports blew up and needed to be fixed...ray louie and i worked on it most of yesterday and all day today...it was annoying...it kept me busy but it was overwhelming at the same time...then when i thought they were all done i found out that i did some of them wrong...not any fault of my own...i was never told the proper way to do the ones that were messed up...well i was but then the rules changed and i didnt know about the rule change...anyway...i had to go back and fix them...i think i was fried after that...everything is okay now...it was just annoying at the time...this has nothing to do with what i really want to talk about but i thought i would share anyway...

LMDANCE...how i miss you so...i need to find my way to dance class...since my "recital" in june i have only taken one class...=(...and it was only hiphop...dont get me wrong i love myself some hiphop class but i also love a good tap or jazz or lyrical class and it has been WAY TOO LONG since one of those...i hear all these songs that would be great to dance to and it makes me so sad that there are no more recitals to dance in...not only do i miss taking class i miss performing too...there is nothing like being up on stage with the lights shining and the music blasting and the audience watching and just giving it everything you have...i miss it so much...and i miss all of my friends from dance...sure we are still friends but we dont see each other nearly as much as we use to...there is a big whole in my world right now without dance...i guess it takes a while to get used to but i dont want to...i'm not a fan of change and this is just too much for me to handle...so i guess dancing in my kitchen and living room will have to do for now but i need to find some classes to take before i go crazy...

i am constantly hearing new songs and saying omg i need to dance to this...i recently got the newest lifehouse cd and there is a song on there called "storm" (i suggest downloading it if you havent heard it before) and it is the perfect lyrical song...i would love to dance to it myself but i dont think i could do it justice...i think it would make an amazing mia michaels contemp on sytycd...i love it...there are other songs too that i hear but just cant think of right now...

yeah i just need to get myself to dance class!!! and that it for now

twilight tuesday!

my plan for todays twilight tuesday was to talk about why i love the book so much but when i got on the train the internet wasn't working on my phone so i couldnt spend my time blogging...then when i got home from work i ate dinner and dj came over so i had to entertain him...and then i had to take a shower and now i'm telling you why i couldnt write my twilight tuesday blog...haha...


so next week i promise i will be sharing reason why i <3>twilight...until then if you love twilight just as much as i do then i suggest checking out http://twilighters.org it has anything and everything you could ever want that is twilight related...so have fun!!


hopefuly i'll be back tomorrow at my usual time...

all by myself

little sisters boyfriend dj is at my house all the time...not just when cort is home but when shes not there too...i'm not complaining or anything cause lets face it i dont have much of a social life and hanging out with him is way better than hanging out with my parents every night...dj and i are like bffs now...lol...

so last week he comes into my house and says "if they ever do another family edition of the amazing race i think me cort kate and chase would be a good team"...omg its one of my dreams in life and hes just gonna kick me off the family team like that!!!...i couldnt believe it...so in that one little sentence that was meant to be completely harmless he brought up all of my repressed panic of omg i am going to be alone for the rest of my life...

there really is no hope for me...i should just except it...but it makes me really sad...ya know that saying is it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all...well i'm gonna go with the first part because it has got to be better than this...if i dont think about it i'm okay but when its thrown in my face it's kinda depressing...i know dj doesnt mean to upset me when he says things like "this winter me and cort and chase and kate are gonna go skiing do you want to go with us"...yeah sure i'll go theres nothing like being the 5th wheel on a ski trip and pay for everything...are you kidding me? NO I DONT WANT TO GO...its just another slap in the face...ya know...

its completely my fault to because no matter how much i pretend like i have my act together in reality i dont...i have super low confidence in myself...i say things to myself like "ugh how could you even think that any guy would ever be interested in you"...and because i have this mindset i dont put myself out there at all...and if i dont put myself out there i'll never find anyone...and if i dont ever find anyone then my self confidence goes down...so its an evil cycle that i cant seem to break out of...and to those of you who say just get out there my answer to you is its not that easy...sure in theory it makes sense but in practice it just doesnt work...i'm getting anxiety right now just thinking about it...

so yeah i built up this box that i live in and i cant seem to get out of it...i tried this year i really did but i seem to be right back where i started...i dont know what to do to fix it but i want to...i really dont want to be alone for the rest of my life...that is my biggest fear in life...i want to find someone to love and who will love my back...is that too much to ask for?...i dont think so...if everyone else can find their match where is mine?....grrrr...its sad and frustrating all at the same time...

i guess that enough of my whining...**sigh**...i'll talk to you later