i dont really have one topic to talk about so i guess ill just give you a quick update of whats been going on in my life!...haha!
~happy 4th of july every one...i know im a day late but what are you gonna do about it...*shrugs*...i celebrated the birth of our fine country in style dts!...our annual bbq was on sunday...unfortunately the weather didnt cooperate with us...it was rainy and yuck all day...try cramming 70 people into a teeny tiny house...yeah, crowd central!...we usually have a lot but not that many...mommom's brother was there from ohio with all his kids and grandkids so that where all the extra people came from...little sis and i spent about a half hour analyzing them trying to figure out who was who...i carried around a cup with my name on it just incase they were doing the same!...haha!!!...my girl cait and her bo E (or aces as tjd was calling him all night...haha!) also showed up for the festivities...which was great!...love them!!!...we had tons of food...tons of drinks (well not me but everyone else...haha!)...some sparkler mishaps (did we get ones that were already used?!...haha!!!)...and tons of fun...it was an overall fun weekend!!!!...
~no news yet on the clark kent front...ugh!...i need to make a move...i really need to tell sports guy and ask him to help me out...its just weird...but then i was thinking about it and we make him tell us about all his dates and stuff so i should be able to tell him to set me up with clark kent (in a non-joking way)...right?!...i dont know how to approach it though...text would be easiest but is that too awkward???...i dont know...why is this so difficult...i need direction!
~im not sure if i ever mentioned this but i have a back up...its totally a joke but its still fun to talk about...i've been wanting to write a blog all about him and our outrageous plans...it was actually going to be my next post but then i found out he has a girlfriend now (i met her this weekend, didnt really talk to her much but she seems very sweet...she even played on the beach with my nephew! =D)...so now i feel weird writing about the out of control wedding im planning with someone who is in a relationship with someone else...everyone knows its a joke but its still weird cause she might not know...i dont want to ruffle any feathers ya know...so we'll see where the future takes us...i might need to find a new backup...haha!
~my vip pictures still arent up...the suspense is killing me!!!...i want to see them so bad!...im so worried that i look terrible in them...i have my fingers and toes crossed that i dont look horrend...
~ i was a guest blogger over at my friend laura's awesome bsb cruise blog...i talked about door decorating...it was really exciting because i never guest blogger before...so that was really cool...so thanks laura for letting me take over your space for a minute!...i really appreciate it!!!...so guys you know what to do...head over there and check it out!
i think thats it for now...if i think of anything else ill be sure to let you know!!!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
what's better than PLATINUM???
NOTHING!!!!!!
this past weekend i was in houston tx on another backstreet adventure!...you may be wondering why i would go all the way to houston...the answer to that is a simple one...the concert was on a saturday night so i didnt have to miss any work...and houston is pretty easy to get to from newark...
what made this concert more special than the rest of the ones ive been to is that little sis and i had platinum vip!!!...for those of you unfamiliar with what that consists of ill give you a quick overview before i get into all the juicy details...with out vip pass we got to go to soundcheck, have a q&a, take a picture with the boys, got a signed 8x10, we went on a backstage tour, and a photo and signature with the tour guide...pretty exciting stuff right?!...well it is to me!!!
so lets get into it shall we?...for the soundcheck part they took requests from the audience...little sis and i wanted them to sing "trouble is"...we knew they probably wouldnt be we tried anyway...they sang "drowning"...i really like drowning but they sing that during the concert...i would have rather heard a song they didnt sing...so little sis and i had to switch our game plan...for the most part they'll sing any single or siberia...and we heard siberia last time...so we had to pick a single that they dont sing..."more than that" was the perfect choice...we started yelling for more than that and a bunch of other people were yelling for "as long as you love me"...alaylm? really?...i mean come one you KNOW that they are going to sing that in the show...it would be such a waste...we knew that there was no way we could let alaylm win...so we started chanting more than that more than that...and we won!...haha! yay!!!...
next up was the question and answer segment...justin (their photographer) was running the show...he explained that we could ask one question per boy...he said "lets start with howie, who has a question for howie?"...uncharacteristically so my hand shot up, waved around and i said "pick me pick me!!"...so justin walked right over to me and handed me the mic! WHAAAAT?!?...this is where i would typically start to panic...nope not this time...the words came out no problem...i said "hiiii! im ashley and im from new jersey! we cam here to see you guys because we are super fans! *giggle* so my question isss in many a interview these guys have said that they call you trump jr, so i want to know if you would ever go on celebrity apprentice? and if so do you think you have a legitimate shot at winning?"...right away brian was like great question!...and nick and aj were like yeah you should do it you would be soo good and other stuff like that...so when they all stopped talking howie answered and he said that celebrity apprentice is actually one of his favorite shows he watches with his wife all the time...then he said yeah! if they asked him and he had the time he would def do it!!...it made me really happy that they all seemed to like my question...even if they didnt like it they still made me feel like they did...and thats all that matters!...i tried to come up with something that they havent heard before...and maybe this will plant the seed and one day we will see my little howito on my tv screen every week...
after that the other 3 were asked their questions...if you want to know what they were please ask and ill give you all the details!...but as far as im concerned they werent as good as mine!...haha!...im just kidding of course...
next up was picture time...barricades and no hugs...double boo!!!...but ya know what...a handshake is better than nothing...so ill take what i can get...i do have a slight problem with the barricades...my problem has nothing to do with wanting to be closer and everything to do with most of the pictures come out really bad...one person standing there like and idiot infront and the 4 of them trying their best to squish in...so as soon as i saw the barricade my wheels started turning...i refused to have a stupid picture...standing in the line i kept trying different things but i didnt really like any of them...then all of a sudden i was next...oh no! what was i going to do?!?...so i walked over to them and said hello to aj, then nick, then brian and when i got to my main squeeze he said that was a really great question!...eeek!...im pretty sure i said thank you...then it was really picture time...so i blurted out can you guys like reach out or something...like arms everywhere...(when i said this i was picturing 2005 she moves group picture in my head...haha!)...so they were like reach? like this?...and i was like yeah yeah yeah!...then i saw their arms out of the corner of my eye...so they did it...little sis says it looked really cool...but i havent seen the picture yet so fingers crossed it came out good!...
so right after the picture was taken howie continued to talk to me!!!...he asked me where in jersey im from and he said where his wife is from and asked me if i knew where is was...so i had an actual conversation with him...sure it was short but it was a conversation...which is a huge improvement from last time i had the opportunity to do so...remember this mishap?...haha!...
the whole thing could have been over at that moment and i would have totally been okay with it!!...but it wasnt over...we still had a backstage tour to get to...our tour guide was none other that the amazing mr nick carter!!!...he showed us all kinds of cool stuff about all the moving pieces of the tour right down to the signs they put on the walls so they dont get lost...when he was talking about the signs he said "these are very important because these places are huge and most of us are kinda stupid"...so i loudly said "oh stop it!"...i got a chuckle out of him (and a lot of the other girls too!...haha!)
when the tour was over everyone got to take a picture with nick...so gave everyone a chance to say whatever they wanted to him...it didnt seem like anyone was saying anything but i dont know maybe i just wasnt paying attention...i didnt really have anything planned to say but i didnt want to miss the opportunity...so when it was my turn i said to him "i just want to let you know that 'burnin up' is totally my summer anthem"...he said thanks...then we snapped the picture...and then i continued on and said "i mean really, how can you not fist pump at the jersey shore to it???"...he laughed and said thats so funny!!!...so yay! even though nick was sick i still got him to laugh twice!! (for those of you who havent heard the song... check it out here ...perfect fist pumping song...right?!?)
so overall i had such an awesome time!!!...the fact that i was able to form complete sentences while talking to the freaking backstreet boys is HUGE for me...i am so proud of myself...i mean if i can talk to them then i can talk to anyone!!! (clark kent here i come...haha!!!)
for those of you who took the time to read all this...thanks!...i hope you enjoyed the story of my latest backstreet adventure!!
ps ~ as soon as the pictures are posted on the website i will put mine and little sis' on here!
this past weekend i was in houston tx on another backstreet adventure!...you may be wondering why i would go all the way to houston...the answer to that is a simple one...the concert was on a saturday night so i didnt have to miss any work...and houston is pretty easy to get to from newark...
what made this concert more special than the rest of the ones ive been to is that little sis and i had platinum vip!!!...for those of you unfamiliar with what that consists of ill give you a quick overview before i get into all the juicy details...with out vip pass we got to go to soundcheck, have a q&a, take a picture with the boys, got a signed 8x10, we went on a backstage tour, and a photo and signature with the tour guide...pretty exciting stuff right?!...well it is to me!!!
so lets get into it shall we?...for the soundcheck part they took requests from the audience...little sis and i wanted them to sing "trouble is"...we knew they probably wouldnt be we tried anyway...they sang "drowning"...i really like drowning but they sing that during the concert...i would have rather heard a song they didnt sing...so little sis and i had to switch our game plan...for the most part they'll sing any single or siberia...and we heard siberia last time...so we had to pick a single that they dont sing..."more than that" was the perfect choice...we started yelling for more than that and a bunch of other people were yelling for "as long as you love me"...alaylm? really?...i mean come one you KNOW that they are going to sing that in the show...it would be such a waste...we knew that there was no way we could let alaylm win...so we started chanting more than that more than that...and we won!...haha! yay!!!...
next up was the question and answer segment...justin (their photographer) was running the show...he explained that we could ask one question per boy...he said "lets start with howie, who has a question for howie?"...uncharacteristically so my hand shot up, waved around and i said "pick me pick me!!"...so justin walked right over to me and handed me the mic! WHAAAAT?!?...this is where i would typically start to panic...nope not this time...the words came out no problem...i said "hiiii! im ashley and im from new jersey! we cam here to see you guys because we are super fans! *giggle* so my question isss in many a interview these guys have said that they call you trump jr, so i want to know if you would ever go on celebrity apprentice? and if so do you think you have a legitimate shot at winning?"...right away brian was like great question!...and nick and aj were like yeah you should do it you would be soo good and other stuff like that...so when they all stopped talking howie answered and he said that celebrity apprentice is actually one of his favorite shows he watches with his wife all the time...then he said yeah! if they asked him and he had the time he would def do it!!...it made me really happy that they all seemed to like my question...even if they didnt like it they still made me feel like they did...and thats all that matters!...i tried to come up with something that they havent heard before...and maybe this will plant the seed and one day we will see my little howito on my tv screen every week...
after that the other 3 were asked their questions...if you want to know what they were please ask and ill give you all the details!...but as far as im concerned they werent as good as mine!...haha!...im just kidding of course...
next up was picture time...barricades and no hugs...double boo!!!...but ya know what...a handshake is better than nothing...so ill take what i can get...i do have a slight problem with the barricades...my problem has nothing to do with wanting to be closer and everything to do with most of the pictures come out really bad...one person standing there like and idiot infront and the 4 of them trying their best to squish in...so as soon as i saw the barricade my wheels started turning...i refused to have a stupid picture...standing in the line i kept trying different things but i didnt really like any of them...then all of a sudden i was next...oh no! what was i going to do?!?...so i walked over to them and said hello to aj, then nick, then brian and when i got to my main squeeze he said that was a really great question!...eeek!...im pretty sure i said thank you...then it was really picture time...so i blurted out can you guys like reach out or something...like arms everywhere...(when i said this i was picturing 2005 she moves group picture in my head...haha!)...so they were like reach? like this?...and i was like yeah yeah yeah!...then i saw their arms out of the corner of my eye...so they did it...little sis says it looked really cool...but i havent seen the picture yet so fingers crossed it came out good!...
so right after the picture was taken howie continued to talk to me!!!...he asked me where in jersey im from and he said where his wife is from and asked me if i knew where is was...so i had an actual conversation with him...sure it was short but it was a conversation...which is a huge improvement from last time i had the opportunity to do so...remember this mishap?...haha!...
the whole thing could have been over at that moment and i would have totally been okay with it!!...but it wasnt over...we still had a backstage tour to get to...our tour guide was none other that the amazing mr nick carter!!!...he showed us all kinds of cool stuff about all the moving pieces of the tour right down to the signs they put on the walls so they dont get lost...when he was talking about the signs he said "these are very important because these places are huge and most of us are kinda stupid"...so i loudly said "oh stop it!"...i got a chuckle out of him (and a lot of the other girls too!...haha!)
when the tour was over everyone got to take a picture with nick...so gave everyone a chance to say whatever they wanted to him...it didnt seem like anyone was saying anything but i dont know maybe i just wasnt paying attention...i didnt really have anything planned to say but i didnt want to miss the opportunity...so when it was my turn i said to him "i just want to let you know that 'burnin up' is totally my summer anthem"...he said thanks...then we snapped the picture...and then i continued on and said "i mean really, how can you not fist pump at the jersey shore to it???"...he laughed and said thats so funny!!!...so yay! even though nick was sick i still got him to laugh twice!! (for those of you who havent heard the song... check it out here ...perfect fist pumping song...right?!?)
so overall i had such an awesome time!!!...the fact that i was able to form complete sentences while talking to the freaking backstreet boys is HUGE for me...i am so proud of myself...i mean if i can talk to them then i can talk to anyone!!! (clark kent here i come...haha!!!)
for those of you who took the time to read all this...thanks!...i hope you enjoyed the story of my latest backstreet adventure!!
ps ~ as soon as the pictures are posted on the website i will put mine and little sis' on here!
Monday, June 20, 2011
week 7
i know i know...you are all wondering "week 7? week 7 of what? and what happened to weeks 1 through 6?"...no worries...ill get to that...this is just the first week i have something to talk about...haha!...so lets quickly rewind back to the beginning...
it is currently week 7 of the "lose it all challenge" that im participating in...ive mentioned it briefly here but not really in too much detail...but the just of it is every week leading up to bsbcruise2011 there is a backstreet related challenge (in case you didnt know, lose is all is the title of a bsb song)...im competing against 3 other girls who will also be on the cruise...at the end whoever loses the highest percentage will win cruise merch!...i am super competitive and need to win...but aside from winning im so glad that i have those other girls there for me...its a great support system...so while we are competing against each other we are still helping each other...so really its a win win...also it works out perfectly that we each have a dif fav so its almost like im competing for howie...and i cant let my little howito down...so its even more incentive to win...haha!!!
okay so whats so special about week 7?....this weeks challenge is to learn some bsb choreo!!..eeeek!!!...thats right...its a dance challenge!!!...woot woot!...but there is a problem...how can i learn a new backstreet dance when i already know most of them?...so i gotta think outside the box...
actually i didnt know dont turn out the lights yet...but only because i knew about this challenge and i was saving it...so on Friday (our challenge weeks start on fridays) it took me all of 10 minutes maybe less to learn the chorus...so i feel like i cant count that as my challenge...so now comes the out of the box thinking...haha!
during this current tour they have a dance break at the end of the call...its to a completely different song which isnt theirs...but it is their dance...so i decided i should try to learn this...its way harder than i thought it would be...im not talking about the difficulty of the choreo...im talking about finding a decent video of it on you tube...most are from the back or are too far away or are too shaky to follow...so im trying the best i can but i cant learn what they are doing if i cant see what they are doing...you know...im having the same problem with a dance from the this is us tour i wanted to learn...so unfortunately i may have to scrap them...ugh...
but dont fret peeps!...i have more out of the box thinking up my sleeve...for recital 2005 my solo was to "incomplete"...over the years i forgot most of this dance...which is weird because i listen to this song way more than any of my other solo songs and yet i remember those...haha!...well anyway...i know that this is not their choreo but it is their song...so i decided to relearn this dance...there is one part that there is no way i can do now...im not even really sure how i did it then...haha...so ive been working on that all weekend and since it was pretty short the first time around i decided to add some on to it...i think its coming out pretty good...but we'll see...i hope the other girls like it and i dont look like a moron!...haha!!!
well thats all for now...ill be back soon!
it is currently week 7 of the "lose it all challenge" that im participating in...ive mentioned it briefly here but not really in too much detail...but the just of it is every week leading up to bsbcruise2011 there is a backstreet related challenge (in case you didnt know, lose is all is the title of a bsb song)...im competing against 3 other girls who will also be on the cruise...at the end whoever loses the highest percentage will win cruise merch!...i am super competitive and need to win...but aside from winning im so glad that i have those other girls there for me...its a great support system...so while we are competing against each other we are still helping each other...so really its a win win...also it works out perfectly that we each have a dif fav so its almost like im competing for howie...and i cant let my little howito down...so its even more incentive to win...haha!!!
okay so whats so special about week 7?....this weeks challenge is to learn some bsb choreo!!..eeeek!!!...thats right...its a dance challenge!!!...woot woot!...but there is a problem...how can i learn a new backstreet dance when i already know most of them?...so i gotta think outside the box...
actually i didnt know dont turn out the lights yet...but only because i knew about this challenge and i was saving it...so on Friday (our challenge weeks start on fridays) it took me all of 10 minutes maybe less to learn the chorus...so i feel like i cant count that as my challenge...so now comes the out of the box thinking...haha!
during this current tour they have a dance break at the end of the call...its to a completely different song which isnt theirs...but it is their dance...so i decided i should try to learn this...its way harder than i thought it would be...im not talking about the difficulty of the choreo...im talking about finding a decent video of it on you tube...most are from the back or are too far away or are too shaky to follow...so im trying the best i can but i cant learn what they are doing if i cant see what they are doing...you know...im having the same problem with a dance from the this is us tour i wanted to learn...so unfortunately i may have to scrap them...ugh...
but dont fret peeps!...i have more out of the box thinking up my sleeve...for recital 2005 my solo was to "incomplete"...over the years i forgot most of this dance...which is weird because i listen to this song way more than any of my other solo songs and yet i remember those...haha!...well anyway...i know that this is not their choreo but it is their song...so i decided to relearn this dance...there is one part that there is no way i can do now...im not even really sure how i did it then...haha...so ive been working on that all weekend and since it was pretty short the first time around i decided to add some on to it...i think its coming out pretty good...but we'll see...i hope the other girls like it and i dont look like a moron!...haha!!!
well thats all for now...ill be back soon!
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
NKOTBSB baby!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
now that the screaming is out of the way lets get down to business...oh wait first i have to say *SPOILER ALERT!!!*...if you havent been to the show yet and you dont want to know what happens please STOP reading NOW!!!...im serious...i dont want to ruin anything for any one...but please come back after you've gone to the show...and everyone please feel free to share your thoughts below!!!
okay...so now lets really get down to business!!...haha!...the show was amazing!!!...ive gone to 3 so far and i obviously love my boys but each time i go i leave with more and more love for the new kids...they really are entertaining...and their songs are catchy!...
so lets start from the beginning...they have this video montage that could give you chills when you really think about the magnitude of all of this...and it builds all kinds of suspense for the boys and kids to appear on the stage...when that curtain drops and all nine of them are standing there together on a high rise platform the feeling in the arena is electric!...its exciting just thinking about it!!!...and then they go into a mash up of "single" by nkotb and "the one" by bsb and a sliver of "viva la vida" by coldplay added in for good measure...i LOVE this mash up!...i hope they record it or something cause i could listen to it over and over...
next the 2 groups went song for song, back and forth, with a bunch of up tempo hits...almost like a battle but not really...haha!...durring this section is where my boys show off their dance skills during the dance break for the call (which i think im going to try to learn next week!) and during bye bye love (they changed this dance from last year which initially made me sad but now i love the new one too!)...as for the new kids, this section introduced me to my new fav song of theirs....dirty dancing!...if you've never heard it i strongly suggest you look it up!!!!...
next they each did a block of a few ballads...new kids went first...the first time is saw the show it was a little tough to get through this part but of course i went home, did some studying and came back prepared the next time...haha!...anyways...backstreet boys' ballad section included show me the meaning, 10,000 promises, i'll never break your 
heart (fans were picked to go on stage for this one...i so wish i was one of those lucky girls!) drowning, and incomplete...this was all done while wearing white silky pajamas...i mean suits...haha!...naturally mid tempo songs would come next...during the new kids section they sang the classic step by step...if you dont know that song then you must live under a rock!...haha!...they sang a whole bunch of others songs during this time donnie ripped his shirt off...(holy abs batman!...haha!) aanndd...they all jumped into the audience to sing "tonight"...
for bsb's mid tempo segment they started in the audience!!!...for one of my shows i was in the section they come down but on the other isle....so it was pretty impossible to see them...boo!...oh well...moving on...they sang a whole bunch of oldies but goodies...like qpg...alaylm...and aihtg...but for me the biggest surprise of the night was when they sang "if you stay"...this song isnt even on an album but they sang it during black and blue tour...they sound AMAZING during this one (well i always 
think they sound amazing but this one was extra amazing!...haha!)...new kids were up next and they sang another ballad or 2...and then using the same fake out music they've been using for 6 years bsb came back and sung i want it that way...i think we all know how i feel about this song...haha!...
next came all the mushy gushy intros...what i like about this part is that they say something different every time!...and it gives everyone a chance to say something (well except for jon knight of course...who btw is totes my fave new kid...haha!)...after the intros were done they all stayed on stage and performed "dont turn out the lights"...i love seeing all of them on the stage together and interacting with each other...its great!!!...
to end the show backstreet boys sang everybody (which i find to be waaayyy more exciting live than recorded)...new kids sang hanging tough...then they all sang a mash up of everybody and hanging tough...h
aha!...and then the show was over...awww...some things to point out:
- all of the nkotb songs are a million times better live than recorded
- i was in second row for one of my shows...thats right second row!!...ahhhh!!! it was better than i could have ever imagined...we were sooo close to all of them
-my boys are still the best...the sound great...the look great...they dance great...they are just great!...haha!
-I WON SILVER VIP!!!! that was for monday's show...wow!!!...i cant stop looking at the picture...
- little sis and i have platinum vip for when we go to houston next weekend so expect a full review of that experience
- everyone should try to go to this concert...it really was a show ill never forget!!!!
Thursday, June 9, 2011
i got nothin
i have this urge to write in my handy dandy blog...and yet i dont really have anything to talk about...well i guess i have a few little things i could say...but no real spectacular story...oh well...i guess ill just give you the run down on whats been going on since we last chatted!
theres no news on the clark kent front...we try to get sports guy to plan a happy hour but he wont do it and we dont know why...ugh...but we are gonna continue to work on that...because we still talk about him everyday...haha!...one day i will get my meeting...fingers crossed!...haha!
last week little sis and i went to our first of 5 nkotbsb shows...we loved every second of it!!!...i promised little one i wouldnt give anything away so you wont be getting any details out of me until after she sees the show on sunday night!...so expect my full review on tuesday or wednesday or sometime after that...you guys know im now the fastest with reviews...haha!!!
right now im waiting for the subway...its about 5 billion degrees down here and there train is not coming...so now its almost a guarantee that i will miss my njtransit train...so now my mood is going down hill and fast!!!...ugh!!!...did i ever tell you haw much i HATE public transportation!!!...
deep breath...calm down...okay...i think im alright okay fine now...there is no way im gonna make my train so i just have to except that and move on...*sigh*
hmm...so what else has been going on...oh so randomly one day a few months ago i stumbled upon a fan fiction website...i havent read fan fics in years...but i was bored and figured hey why not...and now i am hooked...everyone needs to go to my-confession.net and read karah's stories!...they are so good!!!...her current story "back to December" is amazing...its the sequel to "the story of us"...so obviously you should read that one first...even if you arent a backstreet fan you should still go check them out...i promise you wont be disappointed...they are entertaining for anyone... =)
yeah so thats about it...if anyone has anything specific you want my to talk about i will gladly do so...also feel free to ask me anything...i will def provide you with an answer!...
well, until next time...happy blogging!
*update*: i def would have missed the train...but njtransit was late too...so for once that worked out in my favor!...haha! ; )
theres no news on the clark kent front...we try to get sports guy to plan a happy hour but he wont do it and we dont know why...ugh...but we are gonna continue to work on that...because we still talk about him everyday...haha!...one day i will get my meeting...fingers crossed!...haha!
last week little sis and i went to our first of 5 nkotbsb shows...we loved every second of it!!!...i promised little one i wouldnt give anything away so you wont be getting any details out of me until after she sees the show on sunday night!...so expect my full review on tuesday or wednesday or sometime after that...you guys know im now the fastest with reviews...haha!!!
right now im waiting for the subway...its about 5 billion degrees down here and there train is not coming...so now its almost a guarantee that i will miss my njtransit train...so now my mood is going down hill and fast!!!...ugh!!!...did i ever tell you haw much i HATE public transportation!!!...
deep breath...calm down...okay...i think im alright okay fine now...there is no way im gonna make my train so i just have to except that and move on...*sigh*
hmm...so what else has been going on...oh so randomly one day a few months ago i stumbled upon a fan fiction website...i havent read fan fics in years...but i was bored and figured hey why not...and now i am hooked...everyone needs to go to my-confession.net and read karah's stories!...they are so good!!!...her current story "back to December" is amazing...its the sequel to "the story of us"...so obviously you should read that one first...even if you arent a backstreet fan you should still go check them out...i promise you wont be disappointed...they are entertaining for anyone... =)
yeah so thats about it...if anyone has anything specific you want my to talk about i will gladly do so...also feel free to ask me anything...i will def provide you with an answer!...
well, until next time...happy blogging!
*update*: i def would have missed the train...but njtransit was late too...so for once that worked out in my favor!...haha! ; )
Monday, May 30, 2011
and so it begins...
"summer of eleven, its gonna be heaven" has officially (or unofficially depending on how you look at it) begun...yay!!!!
i spent the weekend down the shore...overall it was a really fun weekend...there were lots of people here...some drama that i tried to stay out of...and lots of laughs...i dont think i laughed so hard so many days in a row in a while...and thats saying a lot cause i laugh all the time...but now i am exahusted...sitting out in the sun all day really takes a lot outta ya...haha!...good thing i have off from work all week...i am so excited to sleep in everyday and do whatever i want all day...yess!!!
i saw the hangover part 2 saturday night...sooo funny!!!...if you havent seen it yet then you should go right now!!!...my advice to you is to go into it with an open mind...dont expect there to be a thought provoking plot...cause there isnt one...its exactly the same plot line as the first one...but know what? it doesnt matter...it was still laugh after laugh!!! it was awesome!!!...im laughing now just thinking about it!!...haha!!!!!
and finally you didnt think i would drop this crush bomb on you last time and then not say anything about it did you???...haha!!!!...so i think im gonna stick with clark kent...it just works...if you ever saw him you would be like hes totally not clark kent at all...but it really does work...and he can totally turn out to be my very own superman!...well thats the plan at least...haha!!... ; )
but of course theres a problem already...so heres the story...clark kent is going to aruba in september for a wedding...and ever since we found out about this wedding cool girl and i have been tellin sports guy to tell him to take us to aruba with him...cool girl was a little more vocal about wanting to go to aruba than i was so sports guys finally said something to clark kent...but he only mentioned her...which at the time i was totally okay with that cause i didnt admit to myself that i actually liked him and really wanted to go...since that first time sports guys said something a few weeks ago nothing else was said...
as you know thursday is when i realized that i am totally crushin on clark kent...friday sports guy came back from lunch and told us that he finally followed up about aruba...the way he made it sound is that clark kent is totally into taking cool girl to the wedding...noooo....so this means that they had an actual conversation about her and it seems like he asked a lot of questions and stuff...so now it would be weird to say oh no, not her, the other one...ugh...just my luck...but i guess its my fault...i could have totally said something earlier...but in true ashley fashion i kept my mouth shut...ugh...why am i so lame?!...haha!!...
yeah so now im not really too sure what to do...i guess im going to have to let sports guy know that all jokes aside i actually want to go out with clark kent...but thats just a really weird conversation to have...it would be like telling your uncle or something...like its okay if he knew but i dont know if i could tell him...i dont know...does that even make sense?!?...haha!!!...but i think thats the only way to move this along...because keep in mind we've never actually met...so yeah this whole thing is kindda weird...well i like i said earlier i have a whole week off from work...so i have some time to think about it...we shall see what happens!...fingers crossed it works out!!! =)
well i must be going now...i hope everyone had a fantabulous weekend!!!
(i dont know why but spell check isnt working so sorry for any mistakes!)
i spent the weekend down the shore...overall it was a really fun weekend...there were lots of people here...some drama that i tried to stay out of...and lots of laughs...i dont think i laughed so hard so many days in a row in a while...and thats saying a lot cause i laugh all the time...but now i am exahusted...sitting out in the sun all day really takes a lot outta ya...haha!...good thing i have off from work all week...i am so excited to sleep in everyday and do whatever i want all day...yess!!!
i saw the hangover part 2 saturday night...sooo funny!!!...if you havent seen it yet then you should go right now!!!...my advice to you is to go into it with an open mind...dont expect there to be a thought provoking plot...cause there isnt one...its exactly the same plot line as the first one...but know what? it doesnt matter...it was still laugh after laugh!!! it was awesome!!!...im laughing now just thinking about it!!...haha!!!!!
and finally you didnt think i would drop this crush bomb on you last time and then not say anything about it did you???...haha!!!!...so i think im gonna stick with clark kent...it just works...if you ever saw him you would be like hes totally not clark kent at all...but it really does work...and he can totally turn out to be my very own superman!...well thats the plan at least...haha!!... ; )
but of course theres a problem already...so heres the story...clark kent is going to aruba in september for a wedding...and ever since we found out about this wedding cool girl and i have been tellin sports guy to tell him to take us to aruba with him...cool girl was a little more vocal about wanting to go to aruba than i was so sports guys finally said something to clark kent...but he only mentioned her...which at the time i was totally okay with that cause i didnt admit to myself that i actually liked him and really wanted to go...since that first time sports guys said something a few weeks ago nothing else was said...
as you know thursday is when i realized that i am totally crushin on clark kent...friday sports guy came back from lunch and told us that he finally followed up about aruba...the way he made it sound is that clark kent is totally into taking cool girl to the wedding...noooo....so this means that they had an actual conversation about her and it seems like he asked a lot of questions and stuff...so now it would be weird to say oh no, not her, the other one...ugh...just my luck...but i guess its my fault...i could have totally said something earlier...but in true ashley fashion i kept my mouth shut...ugh...why am i so lame?!...haha!!...
yeah so now im not really too sure what to do...i guess im going to have to let sports guy know that all jokes aside i actually want to go out with clark kent...but thats just a really weird conversation to have...it would be like telling your uncle or something...like its okay if he knew but i dont know if i could tell him...i dont know...does that even make sense?!?...haha!!!...but i think thats the only way to move this along...because keep in mind we've never actually met...so yeah this whole thing is kindda weird...well i like i said earlier i have a whole week off from work...so i have some time to think about it...we shall see what happens!...fingers crossed it works out!!! =)
well i must be going now...i hope everyone had a fantabulous weekend!!!
(i dont know why but spell check isnt working so sorry for any mistakes!)
Thursday, May 26, 2011
new crush
well....the day has finally come for me to say that im pretty sure i have a new crush...haha!...i feel like im at my most entertaining when im boy crazy...(maybe not, i dont know...what do you think???)...i havent talked much about boys since concert guy moved...and that was in the fall...so its been a while...i think its about time to get back into the spirit...summers coming and its always fun for me to imagine having that perfect summer romance...haha!
the reason i say pretty sure is because while ive never intentionally thought of him in a crushy sorta way, hes always been in the back of my mind as a possibility...(and by always i mean the few years ive known who he was)...but now im realizing that based on what i know we would actually be a good match...and now when i see him i lose my breath a little and get that quick butterfly feeling...ya know what i mean?!...but what makes this tricky is i dont even know him!...i mean i feel like i know him but we've never even spoken to each other...he probably doesnt even know my name...haha!...
so now im sure youre wondering how i feel like i know him if we've never met...the answer to that is easy: sports guy!...sports guy is a chatty cathy and talks about him all the time...cool girl and i know everything about him...haha!...we seem to have pretty similar personalities...
i feel like this is a guy that could actually work out...i think before i was always setting myself up for disaster...i think i was scared and subconsciously sabotaging myself...of course im still scared but i think im finally ready to take a real risk...or at least talk about taking a real risk...haha!
now the problem is how do i approach this???...cool girl and i are always joking about dating him but now i really do want to date him...so its weird...i dont know what to say...hmmm....anytime an opportunity comes up for me to say something about it i chicken out per usual...its gonna be tough to actually do something about this...
but for now i guess the only thing left to do is give him a cool blog name...oh man i have no idea what it should be...think...think...i got nothin...ill think about it some more and let you know what i come up with in my next post...
edit:: after talking with cool girl she suggested his cool blog name be clark kent...it totally works (even though he looks nothing like clark kent...haha!)...so clark kent it is...maybe ill shorten it some to clarky...wait that kinda sounds like a dog...haha!!...or maybe CK...or maybe ill just leave it as clark kent...i dont know...ugh...why am i so wishy washy?!?...haha!!!
well until next time happy blogging!!! =)
the reason i say pretty sure is because while ive never intentionally thought of him in a crushy sorta way, hes always been in the back of my mind as a possibility...(and by always i mean the few years ive known who he was)...but now im realizing that based on what i know we would actually be a good match...and now when i see him i lose my breath a little and get that quick butterfly feeling...ya know what i mean?!...but what makes this tricky is i dont even know him!...i mean i feel like i know him but we've never even spoken to each other...he probably doesnt even know my name...haha!...
so now im sure youre wondering how i feel like i know him if we've never met...the answer to that is easy: sports guy!...sports guy is a chatty cathy and talks about him all the time...cool girl and i know everything about him...haha!...we seem to have pretty similar personalities...
i feel like this is a guy that could actually work out...i think before i was always setting myself up for disaster...i think i was scared and subconsciously sabotaging myself...of course im still scared but i think im finally ready to take a real risk...or at least talk about taking a real risk...haha!
now the problem is how do i approach this???...cool girl and i are always joking about dating him but now i really do want to date him...so its weird...i dont know what to say...hmmm....anytime an opportunity comes up for me to say something about it i chicken out per usual...its gonna be tough to actually do something about this...
but for now i guess the only thing left to do is give him a cool blog name...oh man i have no idea what it should be...think...think...i got nothin...ill think about it some more and let you know what i come up with in my next post...
edit:: after talking with cool girl she suggested his cool blog name be clark kent...it totally works (even though he looks nothing like clark kent...haha!)...so clark kent it is...maybe ill shorten it some to clarky...wait that kinda sounds like a dog...haha!!...or maybe CK...or maybe ill just leave it as clark kent...i dont know...ugh...why am i so wishy washy?!?...haha!!!
well until next time happy blogging!!! =)
Saturday, May 21, 2011
long drive
well its 11:50 on friday night and im on my way to providence for little sister's graduation...im a little bit tired and a lot bit bored...haha!...bib sis is asleep in the back seat and my poppy is driving...and we all know how chatty he is...haha! (for those of you who dont know, my dad is a man of very few words)...i kept the conversation going for almost 2 hours...now im out of things to say...now we're sitting quietly in the car...and we still have about an hour left...so i thought to myself "self, what should i do know? hmm...i know! i'll write in my handy dandy blog!"...haha!
i dont really have anything of importance to say so this is probably ganna be a pretty rambley entry...maybe not...who knows!...wow...i dont even know what i should ramble about...hmmm...nope no ideas...i guess i could give a run down of some of the things ive got coming up this summer...yeah thats what ill do...
memorial day is right around the corner and with that the summer of eleven its gonna be heaven will begin...hiw is it almost summer already i feel like it was just summer of ten like yesterday...well anyway with mdw comes the first party of the summer...of course its gonna be great just like all of our parties dts!...what makes it even better this year is that i took that whole week off for my mandatory week of vacay...so no rushin back to work on tuesday...yesss!!!
june 2 i will be heading to mohegan sun with little sister for our first of 5 nkotBSB concerts!!!...less than 2 weeks away!...im so excited...this tour is gonna be huge and if you arent going than you are def missing out!!!...besides mohegan we'll be going to both izods, then to houston, and finally hershey park...ive signed up to make video diaries of each show...we'll see how that goes...ive never tried to edit a video together before...it should be interesting...haha!...if they come out somewhat successful i will attempt to post them here...
lets see...what else does the summer hold for me??? oh ill be planning a bridal shower and bachelorette party for the princess...that should be interesting...shes not geting married until december but i think the parties are gonna be in august sometime...so we gotta get crackin with the plans...
and then of course all the other weekends ill be dts! woot woot!!!...i cant wait!...even though we dont really do much while down there i still feel like im doing something instead of staying at home...
oh and also im doing the lose it all challange...im competing against some other girls going on BSBcruise2011...week 2 just ended and im in last place!...what?!...i better step up my game if i wanna win...i must admit that its the first time that ive actively tried to drop some lbs...its really hard...ugh!...hopefully i can get my act together and win this thing!! =)
oh look at that i just killed a half hour! yay!...haha!!...well i guess ill stop here...maybe ill close my eyes for a little bit...
i hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!!!
p.s- since im not home to edit this on a real computer its getting posted spelling mistakes and all!...haha! ; )
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
tough weekend
this past weekend i went to the shore to celebrate big sister's birthday...we went to the tiki bar which was fun...then later we went back to the house and thats when things turned real ugly real fast...
as you know (well at least i think you do) being chronically single is a very sensitive subject for me...i hate every part about it...and the fact that ive never even been on a date nor have i ever been kissed makes the whole thing even worse (and more embarrassing!) for me...its something that i think about EVERY. SINGLE. DAY!...most days i push it to the back of my mind and continue to live my life without it bringing my spirits down...but some days i cant push it away...saturday was one of those days...
it all started when f.u.n. brought up this story about adele...basically she said adele tried online dating using a fake name and no one wanted to date her because of her weight....well thats great...if freaking adele cant find a date how am i ever going to find one...why do guys have to be so shallow???...i have no interest in hearing stories like this one...it just makes me upset and feel like there is no hope for me and i will be alone forever...but in stead of freaking out after f.u.n. told the story i simply said what a terrible story and left the room...i tried to forget about it...
later on that night she decided it was necessary to tell the story again...before she even started i said please dont tell the story i dont like it...but she just had to tell it anyway...this time i couldnt just ignore it...i couldnt push back the tears anymore...
once they started to flow i couldnt stop them...it was uncontrollable...anytime anyone said anything i felt worse and more tears came...of course they werent saying just random things...no, they had to talk about being in love and how great it is...ugh....i wanted to scream "umm hello! im a mess right now because ive never been in love....now is not the time to say its awesome"....but of course i couldnt talk cause a) its extremely tough for me to actually say whats wrong and b) i would have just cried more if the words came out...
on top of that everyone was having their own issues that night...so then i felt bad cause my problems arent as bad as theirs...in fact they are pretty trivial...and yet i was the only one sitting there sobbing...i felt bad and then i felt stupid and it just led to more tears...but then i thought these feeling are real to me...they arent stupid...so why should i feel bad that this is how i feel...
i hate getting to the point when i cant stop crying...its awful...but sometimes it needs to happen...i need to let it out...i just get so sad thinking about the realistic possibility of being alone forever...it hurts my heart...its just soo hard to feel like nobody wants you...i guess the best way to describe it is i feel like im lost at sea on a teeny tiny boat...just drifting along all by myself...hoping and prying that one day someone will come rescue me...but no one ever comes...why is no one coming? where is my rescue boat i so desperately want???...its so lonely out here... =/
i dont want to cry over this time and time again...but reality is that i probably will...i was doing pretty good today but just writing all this out is bringing up all these emotions again...oh boy...*deep breath*...the really sad part is that i do absolutely nothing to change it...i could try online dating...but i dont...i could go out more to try to meet someone...but i dont...hey i could even tell sports guy at work to to set me up with his friend who works downstairs...but i dont...my life so far has shown me that boys want nothing to do with me...so its hard to put myself out there when im 99.9% sure that rejection will follow (i hate rejection!!)...its so much easier to sit at home and cry about it...ugh...im so lame...
im so sorry that ive been so doom and gloom lately...but this is the only outlet i have where i say how i truly feel...i find it a little easier to write the hard stuff than to say it...ya know....
but no worries...i will be okay...and i have some exciting things coming up this summer...so hopefully ill get talk about all of them and you can hear only happiness coming from this blog from now on...
love you all!!! <3 <3 <3
as you know (well at least i think you do) being chronically single is a very sensitive subject for me...i hate every part about it...and the fact that ive never even been on a date nor have i ever been kissed makes the whole thing even worse (and more embarrassing!) for me...its something that i think about EVERY. SINGLE. DAY!...most days i push it to the back of my mind and continue to live my life without it bringing my spirits down...but some days i cant push it away...saturday was one of those days...
it all started when f.u.n. brought up this story about adele...basically she said adele tried online dating using a fake name and no one wanted to date her because of her weight....well thats great...if freaking adele cant find a date how am i ever going to find one...why do guys have to be so shallow???...i have no interest in hearing stories like this one...it just makes me upset and feel like there is no hope for me and i will be alone forever...but in stead of freaking out after f.u.n. told the story i simply said what a terrible story and left the room...i tried to forget about it...
later on that night she decided it was necessary to tell the story again...before she even started i said please dont tell the story i dont like it...but she just had to tell it anyway...this time i couldnt just ignore it...i couldnt push back the tears anymore...
once they started to flow i couldnt stop them...it was uncontrollable...anytime anyone said anything i felt worse and more tears came...of course they werent saying just random things...no, they had to talk about being in love and how great it is...ugh....i wanted to scream "umm hello! im a mess right now because ive never been in love....now is not the time to say its awesome"....but of course i couldnt talk cause a) its extremely tough for me to actually say whats wrong and b) i would have just cried more if the words came out...
on top of that everyone was having their own issues that night...so then i felt bad cause my problems arent as bad as theirs...in fact they are pretty trivial...and yet i was the only one sitting there sobbing...i felt bad and then i felt stupid and it just led to more tears...but then i thought these feeling are real to me...they arent stupid...so why should i feel bad that this is how i feel...
i hate getting to the point when i cant stop crying...its awful...but sometimes it needs to happen...i need to let it out...i just get so sad thinking about the realistic possibility of being alone forever...it hurts my heart...its just soo hard to feel like nobody wants you...i guess the best way to describe it is i feel like im lost at sea on a teeny tiny boat...just drifting along all by myself...hoping and prying that one day someone will come rescue me...but no one ever comes...why is no one coming? where is my rescue boat i so desperately want???...its so lonely out here... =/
i dont want to cry over this time and time again...but reality is that i probably will...i was doing pretty good today but just writing all this out is bringing up all these emotions again...oh boy...*deep breath*...the really sad part is that i do absolutely nothing to change it...i could try online dating...but i dont...i could go out more to try to meet someone...but i dont...hey i could even tell sports guy at work to to set me up with his friend who works downstairs...but i dont...my life so far has shown me that boys want nothing to do with me...so its hard to put myself out there when im 99.9% sure that rejection will follow (i hate rejection!!)...its so much easier to sit at home and cry about it...ugh...im so lame...
im so sorry that ive been so doom and gloom lately...but this is the only outlet i have where i say how i truly feel...i find it a little easier to write the hard stuff than to say it...ya know....
but no worries...i will be okay...and i have some exciting things coming up this summer...so hopefully ill get talk about all of them and you can hear only happiness coming from this blog from now on...
love you all!!! <3 <3 <3
Monday, May 2, 2011
2nd annual birthday bash!
as you may or may not know my birthday is coming up on friday!!! AHHHHH!!!...the big two six!...im excited but im still freaking out just a tad on the inside...but thats not what im here to talk about...i want to talk about this past weekend and my awesome birthday bash!!!
it wasnt out of control like last year when we had burgers flying all over the place (yess actual burgers were being thrown...haha!)...but it was still a ton of fun!!!...there was also a lot less people there this year...which probably contributed to the less wild vibe...haha!...but the people who were in attendance this year are good quality people and i love all of them! <3...
well i guess a recap would be nice...right?!
it really wasnt a super nice day down the shore...so we kinda bummed around all day...i had plans of doing my hair nice and actually wearing make up but since everyone was so relaxed i just said "eh, why bother?...birthday party in sweats! even better!!!"...haha!!!
we watched mean girls...i know a lot of people love it but to me its just okay...it def has some really great lines but im not in love with it as a whole...next we put in the hangover...which i love but i didnt really feel like watching movies any more...so while some were watching cait and i moved to the kitchen and proceeded to do old choreo...i love doing old dances with cait but its been a while so we were beat after a few...back in the day we could have gone all night...haha!...we took a small breather outside and when we came back in everyone was playing cards...i always like watching the card games...i think the never have i ever segment of kings is my fav...you learn so much about people...and whats even better is kings always turns into just never have i ever...haha!...and just an fyi i rock at never have i ever...i cant lose!!!...except for those tricky backwards questions...and people saying things like "never have i ever been on a backstreet boys cruise"...those get me every time!...haha!!! (wait...is that a good thing?!?...haha!)...
well thats pretty much it...it might sound lame but if you were there you would agree that it was not lame...everyone had a great time!!!!...and more importantly i had a great time!!! =)
the only thing i regret is that i didnt follow through with the plan i had set in my head involving blla...the mayor told me i should go for it because he already leaked the plan to blla the night before (or that morning im not sure or maybe he didnt leak the plan...i really dont know now...hmmm)...but of course i didnt (big surprise right?)...there really wasnt a good time to bring it up so i didnt...and im clearly not going to force the issue...maybe another time...the plan isnt completely off the table so we shall see what happens in the future...im gonna say that im still hopeful...haha!!! =)
and thats about it...my guests suggested that i have a birthday every year...so i said hey, if im gonna have a birthday every year there should be a bash to go along with them!...youre hearing it here first mark your calendars for my 3rd annual birthday bash...may 5 2012!!!...its gonna be a good one so try not to miss it!!! haha!!!!
i hope everyone had an awesome weekend too!!!
love ya! <3
it wasnt out of control like last year when we had burgers flying all over the place (yess actual burgers were being thrown...haha!)...but it was still a ton of fun!!!...there was also a lot less people there this year...which probably contributed to the less wild vibe...haha!...but the people who were in attendance this year are good quality people and i love all of them! <3...
well i guess a recap would be nice...right?!
it really wasnt a super nice day down the shore...so we kinda bummed around all day...i had plans of doing my hair nice and actually wearing make up but since everyone was so relaxed i just said "eh, why bother?...birthday party in sweats! even better!!!"...haha!!!
we watched mean girls...i know a lot of people love it but to me its just okay...it def has some really great lines but im not in love with it as a whole...next we put in the hangover...which i love but i didnt really feel like watching movies any more...so while some were watching cait and i moved to the kitchen and proceeded to do old choreo...i love doing old dances with cait but its been a while so we were beat after a few...back in the day we could have gone all night...haha!...we took a small breather outside and when we came back in everyone was playing cards...i always like watching the card games...i think the never have i ever segment of kings is my fav...you learn so much about people...and whats even better is kings always turns into just never have i ever...haha!...and just an fyi i rock at never have i ever...i cant lose!!!...except for those tricky backwards questions...and people saying things like "never have i ever been on a backstreet boys cruise"...those get me every time!...haha!!! (wait...is that a good thing?!?...haha!)...
well thats pretty much it...it might sound lame but if you were there you would agree that it was not lame...everyone had a great time!!!!...and more importantly i had a great time!!! =)
the only thing i regret is that i didnt follow through with the plan i had set in my head involving blla...the mayor told me i should go for it because he already leaked the plan to blla the night before (or that morning im not sure or maybe he didnt leak the plan...i really dont know now...hmmm)...but of course i didnt (big surprise right?)...there really wasnt a good time to bring it up so i didnt...and im clearly not going to force the issue...maybe another time...the plan isnt completely off the table so we shall see what happens in the future...im gonna say that im still hopeful...haha!!! =)
and thats about it...my guests suggested that i have a birthday every year...so i said hey, if im gonna have a birthday every year there should be a bash to go along with them!...youre hearing it here first mark your calendars for my 3rd annual birthday bash...may 5 2012!!!...its gonna be a good one so try not to miss it!!! haha!!!!
i hope everyone had an awesome weekend too!!!
love ya! <3
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