so long 20s

I know I've been gone for a while, making vlogs and such...but I've had some thoughts brewing in my head and I kinda want to get them out...

im writing this with about 2 hours left in my 20s...while part of me is seriously freaking out, there's another part that's at peace...I really am okay with it...a few weeks ago I dramatically mentioned that I was turning 30 and the response I got was don't worry about it, you should be proud...I don't know exactly what he was referring to because he doesn't know me all that well but none the less it got me thinking...and ya know what? I am proud of my self!!

When I look back at my 20s sure there are things that I wish would have happened and didnt...but there are things that I have experienced in the last 10 years that I couldn't have imagined in my wildest dreams...I've lost some friendships...but I've gain new ones...better ones...I would be lying if I said I didnt have my ups and downs but overall I feel like I have learned so much and grown as a person...I checked off many life milestones like graduating college with honors, getting a big girl job, meeting the backstreet boys, buying a car, moving out...((yes meeting bsb IS an important life milestone))...and most importantly I've learned how to be truly happy and not to care what other people think about me...ive learned to just be me...and its fantastic!!...it was a good decade for me...im gonna miss it...

If you asked me on the eve of my 20th birthday where I would be in 10 years I wouldn't have guessed any of this...so im not even going to bother predicting what the next 10 years has in store for me...I'm just gonna sit back, relax and enjoy the ride...I'm excited to find out what the future holds for me!!!

Well...thats all I have right now...thanks for listening...here's to 30!!!

28

Hello there blogging world...its been quite some time since I wrote an actual blog...I've been busy making vlogs!!...If you haven't seen them, I don't know what you're waiting for...they are pretty funny...or at least I think they are...there's a bunch on my YouTube page!!...just do a search for ashalia11...you'll find me...make sure you subscribe to my page while you're at it...

Anyway...I'm not hear to talk about all my cool vlogs...I have an actual blog post that I want to write....This one is gonna be all about my experience being 28...I have a little over a month left at this awesome age and I thought I would take a minute or two to look back and reflect...

Not too long after my birthday back in May I decided that it was time to finally go on a date...I've never been on one and I felt like I was getting kinda old for that...I was ready and determined...I mean I even started using the hashtag #FirstDateAt28...you know it's serious when it has its own hashtag!...haha!!!...

to help me accomplish my goal I signed up for some free Internet dating websites and asked some friends for advice...but besides that I really didn't put any effort in...for Internet dating to work you have to actually reply to the guys who message you...and I didn't really do that...oops!!...so here I am...only a month left and still no first date...ugh!!...but I'm not here to complain!...I'm here to say that I'm okay with it...and I promise I'm not just saying I'm okay with it...I really am...

I like to look at it thins way...I could have focused all of my energy into getting a date...but I didnt...Instead I did so many other really awesome things...tons of people have been on lots of dates...but some the experiences I've had this past year are things that most people don't get to do...and I'm not saying that i wouldn't have been able to do these things if i did go on a date...I'm also not bragging about anything I've done...I'm just saying that sure one area of my life may be lacking but all the rest are full...I consider myself blessed

I have an amazing family who I love with all of my heart and we got through the hardest time of my life together...I don't know what I would have done without each and every one of them

I was able to travel all over the US (and to Guatemala) to go to concerts...and by doing this I've created unbreakable bonds with girls I didn't know a year ago and they are now some of my best friends...Also since we went to so many I managed to be a worldwide girl...AND kendall knows who I am...The first time he told me that he remembered me I think I died a little on the inside...haha!!

I made the decision to leave a job I was unhappy at and take a position at one I loved...okay...maybe loved is too strong of a word...but i definitly liked it a lot better...ive been back for a week and im already much happier...anyway with this came the decision to move out of my parents house and to a different state...The big move isn't happening until the summer but I still decided to do it...it's too late to back out now...

So really this year I've decided that I just have to live my life the way that I want to...do things that make me happy and not worry about anything else...If I'm supposed to go on a date then it will happen...If not then that's okay too...I can't beat myself up over it...I'm much happier when I'm not constantly feeling sorry for myself cause I've never been on a date or never been kissed or anything like that...it's gonna happen one day...i know it will...for now I'll just be over here living my life and smiling over the things i do have and not sad over the things i dont...I feel like this is something I used to say but now at 28 I truly believe it...

#FirstDateAt28 was a bust...oh well...I don't think I would trade any of the good things that happened to me this year for a date...it's not worth it!! =)

Top 13 of '13: #1 WORLDWIDE GIRL!!!!!!!!!

Thanks to everyone who took pictures...im not sure which pictures are from who...but thank you to all of you!!...also if you want to read my initial reaction you can check it out here!!! 

Top 13 of '13: #2 Heffron Drive Winter Tour!!!!

sorry this video is so long!!...i just had a lot to say because this tour was soooo freaking awesome!!