how can you pick just 5 fav bsb songs?

its no secret that i love the backstreet boys!...they are clearly my number one all time fav...if you say to me "tell me why!"...ill say you better not be one of those who only knows i want it that way!!!...haha...just kidding (but im really not!...haha!)...seriously i wouldnt be able to tell you why i love them so much...i just do!...i dont have any life changing story...i just think they are amazing...listening to their music and watching videos of them makes me happy...its as simple as that!...whenever im having a bad day or im nervous about something or i dont feel well, all i have to do is listen to their music...bad day turns into a good day...anxiety goes away...and well if im sick, im sick (unfortunately they dont have any magical healing powers) but at least im sick and happy...not sick and miserable...haha!...

so anyway...recently they had the fans vote for the songs that are going to be on the new nkotBSB album (out on may 24...its a must buy!)...i found it extremely difficult to pick my top 5...i even had a hard time picking 21 songs when i made a cd of my faves over the summer...actually i picked more than 21 and had to make cuts...i also cut some that over lapped with little sis' faves (trouble is and bigger)...its so hard to choose because there are so many good songs!...

here's my list...oh and this isnt in any special order...i just put them into a playlist, hit shuffle, and burned the cd

1) straight through my heart - this is us
2) something that i already know - unbreakable
3) all i have to give - backstreet's back
4) show me the meaning of being lonely - millennium
5) the one (LIVE) - millennium (the live version i have is from the never gone tour)
6) not for me - black and blue
7) shattered - this is us
8) crawling back to you - never gone
9) what makes you different - black and blue
10) the call (neptunes remix) - black and blue (but this version is single only)
11) dont want you back - millennium
12) who needs the world - now or never
13) poster girl - never gone
14) thats the way i like it - backstreets back
15) siberia - never gone
16) gone without goodbye - welcome home
17) from this moment - shania twain tv special
18) shining star - black and blue
19) panic - unbreakable
20) set it off - unreleased
21) helpless - this is us

so...what do you think?...what are your favorite songs???

hi, i'm hanna faintree

monday was the mayor and tjd's 24th birthday...and to celebrate we went to medieval times...thats right you heard me...we went to medieval times!!!...haha!!!...and to start the whole day off little one and blla told everyone that we needed to wear name tags with our new medieval names...mine was hanna faintree...and since i can read so well, the whole day i was calling myself hanna faiRtree...oops!...haha!

so we all had our new names and we were off...we started driving and i knew the general direction of where we had to go but i really wasnt sure on the exact details...since i wasnt prepared we totally missed the exit and ended up in jersey city...but we didnt panic...started singing dynamite super loud...and eventually found the castle!!!...huzzah!!!!

even after getting lost we were still there super early so there was a lot of waiting around...when we were finally let into the arena the real fun started!!!...we were cheering for the green night from the city of leon...we even had our own private both!...the food was great...our knight was awesome (and cute!...hehe)...the competition was exciting!...turns out our knight was the villian...gasp!...but we didnt care...we were going crazy screaming for him anyway!!...since he was the villain, obvi he didnt win...ugh!...but he was the winner in my eyes!...haha!!!

we had soo much fun at medieval times...i highly suggest for everyone to go...it doesnt matter how old you are...just go, appreciate the cheesyness, and have fun!!!

tu-tu celebration!!!

as i mentioned previously...last weekend little sis turned 22 and we celebrated by going to the shannon rose...a great mix of people came out and we had a ton of fun!!!...some of the highlights include (but are not limited to):

~seeing the lifers!!! cait, darc, and master marie all came out with their men for the occasion...i love these girls so much and i hate not seeing them everyday...(for cait's take on the event and some pics go visit her blog!)

~creating our own dance floor!...why should we go to the actual dance floor when we can make our own vip area?!...haha!...this worked out perfect because we had space to actually dance and move around...AND no creepsters bothered us!...haha!

~sticking with the dance theme...recapping so many of the dance jokes we've acquired over the years...everything from the darc walk to shake shake!...haha!...

~wave hands in front of face dance...i dont even know where this came from but its a joke with the cousins...and i like it!...haha!

~blla! the night wouldnt have been complete with out this jokester in attendance

~little one's facial expressions while she was people watching

~boy meets world quotes...UNDAPANTSSSS!!!

~little sis' friend drank just a tad too much...i never saw her like that...and i hate to say it but i totally laughed a little when she was having issues getting into her house...haha!

~most important is that the birthday girl had fun!!! and thats all that really matters!!!

i think thats it...if i think of anything else i'll be sure to let you know!!!...so much fun! cant wait to do it again!!! =)

little sister!

just popping in for a quick hello...and to say:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE SIS!!!!!!

i had a ton of fun celebrating her birthday last night!!!...ill be back soon to talk about all the crazy on goings...but for now i must go...love ya!!!

hand written just for you!

hello there everyone!!

as i mentioned before my girl cait (you def need to read as she finds her balance) tagged me in my very first meme!!...and what makes this even more awesome is that its not just your everyday typed out entry...i get to hand write it!!!...so exciting!!!...yay!!! =)

Answer the following using regular old pen (or other writing implement) and paper:

1) What's your name/your Blogger name

2) What's you blog's name/URL?

3) Write "the quick fox jumps over the lazy dog"

4) Favorite quote?

5) Your favorite song?

6) Your favorite band/singer?

7) Anything else you want to say?

8) Tag 3 to 5 other people

ps ~ i totally wrote in purple sharpie...i dont know why it looks blue...oh well!...AND if there are any words spelled wrong, im sorry!...there is no spell check with pen and paper...haha!!

feelin the love

a pleasant good day to all of you

today has been an excellent day...for the sole fact that little sis and i managed to get 2nd row tickets to nkotBSB!!!...i have never ever had good seats to see my boys...i never really cared because as long as i was there it didnt matter where i was sitting...ive even been in the last row at continental arena...oh and also last row on the cruise...so yeah needless to say its about time we got awesome seats!!!...im so excited for this tour...you have no idea...

anyway what i really wanted to talk about was love...i may not have any romantic type of love in my life right now (which totally stinks btw)...but that doesnt mean that i have no love in my life...i have so many people who care about me and love me...its the little things that make me feel loved...

~my 3rd grade cousin learned all about writing letters in school...so she had to write a letter to a friend or a family member...she picked me! out of everyone in my giant family she picked me!... =)

~every time i see my nephew and he tells me he loves me...my heart just melts...as ive mentioned many times before he is just the cutest kid ever!...

~whenever im on the phone with someone in my family we ALWAYS say i love you before hanging up...i feel so blessed to have family like this...they mean the world to me and im so happy that we can express that to each other...

~here's a blog related one...my girl cait over at finding my balance tagged my in a meme...so yay!...its the first time ive been tagged in one...so thanks for thinking of me cait!...and look for my answers in the near future!

there are so many other little things that i could go on and on about but ill stop here...(a little because i dont want to bore you but mostly because its my stop on the train and im out of time...haha!)...so to all my followers stop and smell the roses, appreciate the little things, and try to tell someone you love them today...tell your parents...your siblings...your mailman...it doesnt matter...just say it to someone and i can guarantee that it will brighten their day and yours!!!...

i'll say it two times...i love you! i love you! <3 <3

what if you won the lotto?

im sure everyone imagines winning the lotto...and im not talking about winning a few dollars on a scratch off...im talking about winning millions...and if you say that its never crossed your mind i would say that youre lying!!...haha!...its something i think about all the time...millions upon millions of dollars...what would you do with it all?!?...here's what i would do...(warning: the first few are more practical and not that exciting...but then ill get to the good stuff...no worries)

1) QUIT MY JOB!!!!!!! yeah, im def not one of those who would keep my job...id give my two weeks and be out of that place so fast they wont know what hit em!

2) GET OUT OF DEBT...directly after saying peace out at work, i would pay off all my credit cards, my car, my student loans...pay off everything i can including the house...and i would do the same for everyone in my family and all my friends...not having to pay credit card bills or loans or mortgages or whatever every month would take a huge weight off of anyones shoulders...

3) COLLEGE FUNDS...i would set them up for my nephew, 2 small cousins, and my little bff...going to college is super important and if i could make it easy for them to go anywhere they want without needing student loans it would start them off on the right foot...and if youre wonding why i need to set up a fund instead of just give it to them when they need it, well the answer is easy...its possible to blow all the money...so if its set aside for them, they would be guaranteed to have it...

4) CARS!!!...i already have a car that i love so i wouldnt need a new one for everyday driving...but i think i would buy some type of convertible for crusin around the shore in the summer...i would also get my sisters and parents new cars...what ever kind they want!...

5) HOUSE...i know this sounds silly but i dont think i would move out of my current house...but i would def upgrade it...i would redo the kitchen however my mom wants...i would also redo all the bathrooms...i would def make my bathroom bigger...i want a huge shower with a bench and the rain and the jets that come out from the side...and i want a separate tub...a really big hot tub, tub...and perhaps a separate toilet area...thats it for the bathrooms but not for upgrades to the house...i would put a full addition on to the house over the garage and the family room...and i have many ideas for all this space...i want a craft room there...complete with everything from paints to sharpees to construction paper to card stock to tape to glue to rhinestones to glitter and anything else you can think of...it will be fabulous!...i also want a movie theater room up there...giant screen tv...surround sound...full recliners...blankets and pillows...popcorn machine...kitchenete...plenty of storage for my huge movie collection...and on the door to this room will be my bsbcruise2010 door dec!...haha!!!...there would also be room for a guest room and another bathroom...and hopefully a storage room to put all my stuff thats overflowing from my room...oh! lets call it a walk in closet and attach it to my bathroom!...yeah that sounds good!...haha!!!

6) SHORE HOUSE!...theres no way that we can give up the prime location we have now...but what we can do it knock it down and build it up!...ill leave the specs to f.u.n and bubbles on that one cause it is there house after all...but i know it will be awesome!!!!

7) WEDDINGS!....if i won within the year i would 100% pay for the princess' wedding...and i would pay for everyone's flight and room!...i would also put plenty aside so little sis and i can have awesome extravagant weddings of our own...i would pull out all the stops, hire david tutera and have the best wedding EVER!!!!!...and if i dont get married i'll throw myself a giant birthday bash!!!!!

8) VACATION!!!!...since i would quit my job i really wouldnt have to many time constraints...and money wouldnt be an issue...so why not go on lots of vacations traveling first class only!!!...i would go on a cruise to alaska...i would go on a disney cruise (on the new ship, not the old ones)...i would go to disney world...i would go to italy...i would make it a point to go to every state...i would go to croatia...and i think thats about it...i guess the places i want to go is pretty short...oh well...

9) OPEN A DANCE STUDIO!!!!...this one is the most important to me because its my dream...and in real life if money wasnt an issue i would already have one...with unlimited funds i could really make my studio state of the art...top of the line floors...sound proof walls...best of the best stereo and sound system...floor to ceiling mirrors...adjustable ballet barres...wi-fi and tvs in the waiting room...a study room for students to do their homework between class...a locker room like bathroom (it would be nice to be able to shower after class before going out...dont you think?!)...it would be perfect...just the way i imagine it to be!!!...

oh my gosh...now im super excited!...i cant wait until i hit a mega jackpot!!!...haha!!! so what would you want from me if i won? or what would you get for yourself if you won millions upon millions??? dont be shy! let me know!!!

holding on

hey kiddies!

before we get into the goods i just want to say that one of my new years resolutions is to write in my handy dandy blog more...umm so far i am failing miserably...haha...this is only post number 2 for the year and its already february...i better step up my game...dont worry i have lots of things brewing in my head...so they will come out sooner rather than later...but i make no promises!...haha!...well lets get on with it shall we...

i have realized that i hold on to way too much stuff...and while i am a borderline hoarder, im not talking about physical things...im talking about ideas and emotions and all that good stuff...so for the sake of this entry lets focus on what i focus on best...boys of course!...haha!...

its no secret that i want more than anything to find a boyfriend but i have an extremely difficult time doing so...i think part of the problem is that i have a hard time letting go...i start crushing on a guy and thats it...its gotta be him or no one...and its not like i like a guy for a short amount of time...for instance i crushed on the same boy from 2nd grade until 8th grade...thats 7 years people...see not short...well i guess the crush on new guy didnt last too long but the guy moved to hawaii and i went on for months still crushin...thats a problem...

even now with concert guy...my brain is 100% confident that there is absolutely no way he sees me as anything more than a friend...and yet i cant let go...i over analyze everything hes ever said to me trying to search for a hidden meaning that isnt there...i just cant give up on the glimmer of hope...ya know...for a while i was even contemplating telling him how i felt...but for what?...for him to tell me something that i already know?...or to completely destroy the little bit of friendship i have left with him?...or to be rejected yet again?...i dont think i could handle it...its really not worth it...but i was stuck...trying to move forward but making very little progress because i wasnt willing to give up...

then out of the blue i received a text from him...and my very little progress flew right out the window...haha!...the butterflies came rushing back...i was so excited...my imagination ran wild with all the things it could possibly say...all it said was that he was gonna take the train in the morning...so of course i got myself all hyped up to see him again...and of course i played out a million different scenarios in my head of what could happen...and each one was more fabulous than the last...unfortunately reality never lives up to the fantasy...when i actually saw him it was slightly awkward...i wasnt really sure what to say...suddenly everything i thought about saying seemed so stupid...but what actually came out of my mouth was even worse...ugh...haha!...so now after that i know i have to let go of him and look for someone completely new...im still holding on a little...but now its by a pinkie finger instead of a full on 2 hand death grip...haha!!!

if i really want to find a man then there is one more thing i need to let go of...i need to let go of the idea i have in my head that "how could anyone possibly love me"...i know its terrible to think but i do...and its not something i like to admit that i think but i do...its always there lingering in the back of my mind...i really really need to let go of that thought...and once i do that i will truly be able to move one...but until that day im stuck...but i wont give up!!!

sorry to be on the woe is me side tonight but sometimes i just need to get these things off my chest ya know...it helps me feel better...and itsnt that part of the reason for blogging?!...well im off...maybe ill watch some boy meets world tonight...that always makes me happy!!! =)

BSB Cruise 2010 (day four)

day four was our day at sea...but more importantly it was meet and great day!!!!! aaaaaahhhhhh!!!! lets get right to it shall we...

getting ready:

our meet and greet/picture time was 1:15...when little sis and i woke up we checked the tv and the time said 11:30...(please note that we were checking the time in the hallway but then one of our new friends said why dont you just check the time on the tv...i cant believe we didnt think of that...its so easy...haha!)...we decided to skip breakfast so we would have enough time to look fabulous for our boys...and less than 2 hours really wasnt a ton of time...haha...so we were ready and out the door around 1245 and went to meet our group members...(we needed to have groups of 8...and ps the girls in our group are awesome!)...none of them were ready...this concerned me slightly...i knew we still had a half hour but to still have wet hair? i was shocked...haha...since no one else was ready we decided to meet everyone there...we went to see what the line was like and we couldnt believe how long it was but this point it was after 1 and everyone on line was in group one which started at noon...while we were looking at the line we saw our dinner friends waiting...(they were in group 1 and we were in group 2 so thats why we couldnt go together)...we said something about the time and how late it was and they said no its only noon now...wait what?!?...are you kidding me?!?...we were an hour off the whole time!...and all because we strayed from our hallway method of telling time...(apparently just turning on the tv wasnt good enough...we had to go to the guide channel for the right time)...haha!!!...after this discovery we ran into our cool neighbors (who we totally conviced the time was later than it really was...oops)...since we had a whole extra hour we went to eat lunch...oh boy...sorry for such a long getting ready story but i thought it was pretty funny!...haha!!! =)

meet and greet:

honestly this was such a blur...it felt like one second i was standing on the line waiting to meet my boys and the next second it was over...sadly no one was allowed hugs...handshakes only...booo! i wanted a hug!...but a handshake is better than nothing...i mean i touched them! and thats all i can ask for...*squeel!!!!*...so when it was our turn we went up on the little stage they had set up...little sis was infront of me and she introduced herself to brian...he was a little confused cause 3 girls in our group had the same name (little sis included!)...so i followed suit and introduced myself to him and said "hi im ashley, its not the same as everyone else...*giggle*!"...i think (and i say think because i was in such a state of shock its hard to remember the details) he laughed as well and said nice to meet you ashley...next down the line was howie and then nick...i have absolutly no idea what i said to either of them so i couldnt tell you...even if you paid me a millions dollars!!!...haha!...then we were rushed into the picture...and i smiled my best!...im not gonna lie i totally practiced my smile in the mirror earlier that day....haha!!!...then as we were leaving i got to shake aj's hand...i think i said thank you...and he said something about enjoying the show later!...at that moment my dreams of meeting the backstreet boys finally came true!!!...words really cant describe how amazing it was...i know it lasted for about 2 minutes but it was so worth it!!!

down time:

we had a ton of time in between the meet and greet and the concert...little sis and i wanted to watch the jets game...but it wasnt playing on the boat...so we decided to go back to our rooms and back our bags...then we just strolled around the ship for a while...we ran into our super cool neighbors so we stopped to chat...and then we realized they were sitting right next to brian!! eek!!...so of course we stayed there for a while...haha!...then some more girls from our photo group spotted us and stopped to chat...we didnt want to be to obvious standing around watching brian so we left with the girls from our group...we brought them on the door dec grand tour...starting with our door and then we went to the winner and other doors that were mentioned...while we were on deck 7 durring our tour we saw a whole bunch of girls just standing around...so we went to investigate...just as we got over there howie walked by!!! the other 3 followed not too long after him...that was exciting cause i was def not expecting to see them at that moment!...so after that it was time to finish packing, take down our door(so sad!),and get ready for our last dinner...

dinner time:

we didnt sit at our normal table bacause it was already taken...but we did sit in the same area...the most exciting thing that happened was our friend from alabama got a picture with howie as he was leaving...of course i wish it was me but i was happy for her!!!...

concert:

the boys put on a full scale production of the this is us tour...really the only difference was that they didnt have the dancers with them...oh and some guy got up on stage after one of the songs and proposed to his girlfriend!...again i wish it was me...haha!...oh my god...imagine?!...haha!...if you want to read my complete thoughts on the this is us tour ill post the link at the bottom...so yeah...it was pretty awesome!!!

black and blue night:
umm yeah...this was ummm...okay...i guess...so lets rewind a smidge...the deck party started off like the rest of them...the music was great and the crowd was pumped...everyone was in black and blue...which looked soo cool!...but the problem was that it was a tad chilly outside and super windy...the boys came out (yay!) but quickly said "lets move the party inside" (boo!)...before they even finished the sentence girls were running towards the club...so now about 2000 girls were trying to get into a club that held maybe two...three hundred at the most!...(oh the anxiety!)...little sis and i made our way down there and waited around for maybe a half hour...we realized it was highly unlikely that we would get in...so we admited defeat and went back to our cabin...it just stinks that this was the last night and we got such a dissapointing send off...i know there is nothing anyone can do about the weather...i just wish they had a better back up plan...ya know?...well whats done is done...

bonus (day 5):
it was time to go home...awww...so sad....but overall our trip was AMAZING!!!...it landed in the number one spot in my top 10 of 10 list!!!...i couldnt have asked for a better cruise...it blew my expectations out of the water!!...but the icing on the cake happened at the airport while i was waiting for my plane...(no, i didnt meet any of them so its not at that level of excitment but it was pretty cool)...i tweeted the backstreet boys to say thank you for the cruise and all that jazz...AND THEY RETWEETED ME!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!....haha!!...see like i said not as exciting as a siting but still pretty cool...right?!?...well i thought it was!!!...yay!!!

well thats it folks...thats my story...sorry it took so long to complete...im terrible i know...haha...and if you missed them or just feel like rereading please check out my recaps of the first 3 days...oh and as always dont be afraid to leave comments!!!
Day One
Day Two
Day Three
This Is Us Tour

top 10 of the year 10

i know i know...i owe you days 2, 3, and 4 of my cruise recap...i promise you will have them soon...the problem is i like to blog on the train...those entries are too long to finish on the train...so i hit save so i can come back later...but they only save to the blogger website and not to my phone...so to finish them i have to sit at my computer...but after sitting in front of a computer all day its not always the first thing i want to do when i get home...ya know...sorry for the long rambling...i just dont want any one to be upset...haha!...

so the purpose of this blog is to put a nice little bow on the end of the year that was 2010...and instead of recapping the whole year i decided to make a top 10 list!!!...enjoy!!!

10) lifehouse / kris allen concert
i had a ball with k dubbs at this concert....kris allen was WAY more entertaining than i thought he would be...at one point he asked everyone to sing along, then said but you dont have to if you dont want to i mean you paid money to see me sing not to sing yourself...haha...so cute!...and he came out in the audience for one of the songs...he was really great...as for lifehouse they were awesome too...i really love their music!!!...this was probably the best non bsb concert i have ever been to!...

9) becoming a TCU fan!!!
this makes the list because of its randomness and awesomeness...i was in atlantic city for a bsb concert in june which happened to be the same day as the usa vs england world cup match...since little one is a huge soccer fan she couldnt miss it (ps she was rooting for england...talk about anti american...haha)...anyway...we went to a sports bar to watch it...we were there way before the game started so they randomly had college baseball on the tvs...we had no idea who was playing...orange vs purple...of course i picked the purple team to root for...and it didnt hurt that they were loosing by about 10 runs so they had that whole underdog thing going for them...haha...as we watched we learned more and more about the teams playing...thats when k dubbs and i decided we would be horned frog fans for life!!!...good thing we did...they made it to the last round before the championships of the college world series...and now the football team is going to be in the rose bowl!...and to top it off they are going to be part of the big east...which means we'll be able to go to some games!...haha!...see i told you...random! =)

8) fantasy football champion!
yeah thats right! i won!!!! im so proud of myself!!! my rookie season and i pull off the big upset in the super bowl!!! yay!!! aaron rodgers and arian foster are my heroes!!!

7)Hemingway's
one night towards the end of the summer i went out with my cousins and their friends to Hemingway's in seaside...the night doesnt make the list because of Hemingway's but because of everything else that occurred that night...everything from all the boy meets world quotes...to finding the undapants video on YouTube...to the "lottery tickets"...to the cheese balls...to "maybe if you didnt walk like this"...to trying to go to sleep but being unsuccessful due to laughing too hard...it was just a really fun night!!!...and if you were there youre probably laughing right now just thinking about it!...

6) friday night ice cream
i went dts most weekends this summer...the best part about it was friday night ice cream...as soon as i got down there after work i threw sweats on grabbed my girls and strolled to summer sweets!...my ice cream of choice was cake batter in a waffle cone with rainbow sprinkles...omg im salivating just thinking about it...soo good....but it wasnt just about the ice cream...it was about taking a stroll with k dubbs and little one...it was the perfect way to unwind after working all week...

5) officially meeting concert guy
i know that my friendship with him never went further than just friends but im okay with that...and im so glad that arti made us go over to him and introduce ourselves...ive had a lot of good times with him...all of which are well document on this blog (feel free to read the archives...just click on concert guy to the right and they should all come up)...haha...i also think that it was a big step for me in the grand scheme of life...

4) this is us tour!!!!
backstreet boys!!!!! aaaaahhhhh!!!!! do i really need to say anything else?!?...i went to this show 4 times this summer and loved it more and more every time!!! you can check out my review here if you havent done so already!

3) 25th birthday bash: local edition
omg sooo much fun!...this was the first time i ever threw an awesome party!!!!...i know, im a little late but what are you gonna due about it?...anyway i told everyone to come but i didnt thing anyone would show up...before i knew it there was tons of people there!...and everyone was having a blast...but more importantly i had a blast!!!!

2)25th birthday bash: disney edition!
its the happiest place on earth!!!! so of course i picked disney as the place i wanted to celebrate my 25th birthday!...i am such a little kid and i love love love disney world...it was so awesome!!! yay!!! i cant wait to go back!!!

1) BACKSTREET BOYS CRUISE 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
are you really surprised?!? haha....best trip ever!!!...right now you can check out my recap of day one...and i promiss...no...i double pinkie swear promise...that i will have the rest of my recaps up very soon...

so that was 2010 in a nutshell...i thought it was pretty amazing!!!
here's to hoping 2011 will be even better!!!!!