Monday, April 26, 2010

okay so i lied...nbd...

last post (actually 2 posts ago) i said that i would stop over analyzing everything...yeah that plan isnt working for me...

friday night i went out with the train friends again!...we went to the breakfast club...so much fun!...but i couldnt help but wish my lifers were there with me...they're really the only ones who understand that i wear my sunglasses at night and i wanna dance with somebody!...my train friends dont understand why i love those songs so much and everything that goes with them!!!...omg i miss my lifers! <3...

anyway...i really tried to just be like well this this and this happened friday night and it is what it is...i even received a text from the mayor asking if there was any more questionable flirting going on and i said no because i didnt want to read into anything..ya know...i was doing so well until that text and then my wheels started turning...

after thinking about the events of friday night there is one thing that i cant let go...randomly through out the night concert guy would come over to me and kiss me on the forehead (and one time on the cheek which totally gave my butterflies...haha...)...what is that all about?!?... is it just like "hey friend whats up" like i would kiss my cousin on the cheek?...or is it "heeeyyy, i secretly want to kiss you for real"???...i just dont know!...and how do i find out what his true intentions are???...i mean i cant just say "hey concert guy, if you want to make out with me all you have to do is say so!"...cause what if its the first option?...we would totally be at awkward level 5 the upside down cow!...its hard to recover from that....haha!!!...

see this is why i need to stop over analyzing...i am a nut case...def off my rocker!...haha!...what do you think it means???...i need to know!!!...yeah im crazy...haha!!!...i guess i will just have to wait it out and see what happens next time we hang out...which hopefully will be at my birthday party saturday night!...he says hes coming but ya never know...if he does come the mayor said he will do some recon for me...and then he should be able to confirm or deny my level of craziness...

ummm...i wonder what would happen if someone let slip about my josie grosie situation....maybe concert guy would step up and put me out of my misery!...oh the imagination i have!...haha!!!...see, crazy!...oh boy...i need help...haha!

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