*sigh* oh well

first i would like to apologize for neglecting my sad little blog here...for some reason blogger doesnt come up on my phone anymore...its so weird...but thats the reason i havent been here lately...

now onto the upset of the day...let me start from the very beginning...so it may take a while...

last blog i mentioned the new guy and how incredibly awesome he was...since then the more i found out about him the more and more perfect he became...i had myself convinced that maybe just maybe things would work out for me this time...i kept telling bff to invite him to come around and hang out with us...because lets face it if i never meet him it would be impossible for anything to happen between us...but of course bff let me down time and time again...first he tells me new guy is single...then he says no he has a girlfriend...then he says no they def broke up and new guy is single and ready to mingle...so i said excellent!!!...make sure he comes to the 4th of july party...bff said okay ill tell him to come...then 4th of july come rolling around and i say "bff, is new guy coming???" and bff says "no i didnt invite him"...what?!?!...ugh...so i told bff that i would let that mess up slide but it better not happen again, make sure he comes to band night...

i knew i couldnt rely on bff after what happened on the 4th...so i enlisted the help of d val (my aunt)...she runs band night and went a personally invited all of the lifeguards to the party...and new guy said he couldnt wait to come!!!...so i told bff that d val already invited him all you have to do is make sure he comes...so bff said okay ill make sure hes there...so thinking that he would be there i put thought into what to wear and how i should do my hair and all of that good stuff...i thought i should look nice if i wanted to impress new guy...band night started at 7...around 9 there was still no sign of new guy...so once again i say "bff, is new guy coming???" and bff says "no, his mom has kidney stones so he went home"...ugh...okay so this time not really bff's fault but disappointing none the less...but at the same time it also made like new guy just a little bit more because he gave up a super awesome party to take care of his mom...awww...

then today came...i was at work and went to our guest desk to skim through the paper and read my horoscope...it said something along the lines of if you want something from someone you have to tell them exactly what you want and not just imply what you want...so i sent a text to little sis and my girl k dubbs (bff's sister)...the text says: "...i want the 2 of you to set me up with new guy...haha...bff has failed in this task so im passing it to you...i dont really care what you say to make it happen...you can be blunt or sneaky it doesnt really matter...peer pressure just do it!...haha!...thanks in advance!!!"...i got no response from little sis but k dubbs got back to me about a half hour later with the following text: "he said 'i'd love to meet her! i mean my girlfriend is such a jealous person but i mean im actually flattered'"...so with that one stupid little word girlfriend it was all over for me...

there are still some unanswered questions...

1. what exactly did k dubbs say to new guy??? i hope it want too embarrassing...
2. why did bff lie to me and say that new guy was single and ready to mingle???...i wouldnt have wasted my time if i knew he wasnt available from the beginning
3. (this next one is my paranoia kicking in) does he really have a girlfriend or did k dubbs show him a picture of me and he said eesh no thanks just tell her i have a girlfriend???...(see paranoia to the max)

well thats the story...and to be completely honest i didnt really think that anything would happen with the new guy...i just liked to hold on to a sliver of hope and imagine what it would be like if a miracle did happen...ya know...so am i disappointed? sure a little bit...but am i surprised or heart broken? no, not at all...