Monday, November 7, 2011

why do i torture myself?

*disclaimer* if you dont want to listen to me whine then please stop reading!...haha!

its been about 3 weeks (i think) since i told sports guy how i feel about clark kent and got the disappointing news that he doesnt want to date anyone from work (i think thats stupid cause its not like we're on the same floor but whatever)...so since all that went down i havnt seen clark kent around...which is totally what i wanted...outta site outta mind...i told myself everyday that i had to get over him cause its never gonna happen...i thought it was working...

but then today came...i was on my way to the caf for coffee and clark kent turned the corner and walked straight towards us...and i got the same crushy butterflies in the stomach feeling that ive been getting...so clearly telling myself to get over it isnt working...ugh!...the worst part is that i used to feel happy after passing by him in the morning...now i just feel sadness...sadness because i know nothings gonna happen...i used to have hope and now i have none...this blows!...

obviously i just have to get over it but how...i just dont know what to do...i cant help the way i feel...i dont control the butterflies...they just appear!...haha!!!...maybe it just wasnt enough time!...hopefully they will go away and i can stop being sad over my latest failed attempt at finding love...*sigh*

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