nervous nelly

guess whos back!....new guy!!!....eeeekkkkk!!!!

for those of you who dont remember new guy lets quickly recap...hes the super hottie lifeguard from last summer i was totally curshin on...oh yeah and i totally made a complete fool out of myself every time he was around...i lost all ability to function as a human being...simple things like saying "hi, i'm ashley" just seemed impossible...but no big deal...haha!...after last summer new guy moved to hawaii and slowly but surely i forgot all about him (thanks in part to concert guy! <3)...does any of this ring a bell???...

well the switch was flipped back on last weekend when f.u.n. informed me that new guy is gonna be at the compound on friday night!...aaahhhhh!!!...i dont know if i should be super excited (hey maybe i will be able to have an actual conversation this time) or if i should be super embarrassed and run for the hills...haha...im just afraid that the mistakes i made last summer will happen again...while im aware that there is def no future relationship there i still dont want him to think im a rataard...cause im not! (okay in front of him i am...haha)...

its been a whole year since i last saw new guy and i am def the same person but at the same time i think i have changed ever so slightly...and hopefully that slight change will be enough for me to be able to have a regular conversation with new guy...i think that the fact that im not really crushin on him anymore will help a lot...well i am but im not...ya know?...lets put it this way...im totally team concert guy now but if an opportunity came up with new guy i def wouldnt turn it down...haha...speaking of concert guy, i've been able to talk to him like a normal person all year...it should be the same with new guy...right?...

i have to try not to think about it too much...there isnt even a guarantee that he will be there friday night...so why am i worried?...this is so dumb...haha!...

yeah ill be fine...i hope!

memory like a vault

i am def one of those people who remembers everything...well maybe not everything but i remember A LOT!...lol...i can remember every one's birthday...i remember dances i did when i was in 8th grade...i remember all kinds of things...so sometimes i say i have a memory like a vault...it goes in and never comes out...there arent to many people who remember as many things as i do...just found out that concert guy is one of those people...

thats right its the return of concert guy...i know i havent mentioned him in a while...but there hasnt been much to say about him lately cause we havent hung out outside of the train since the whole situation with crazy wet hair girl...

as you know last weekend was backstreet weekend...saw them in ac on saturday night...in monmouth on sunday night...and at mohegan sun on tuesday night...since mohegan is a little more than 3 hours from me i took off work on tuesday...and then we got home super late that night so i called in sick on wednesday...when i finally woke up at noon i saw that i missed a text from concert guy...it said "arti wants to know where you are, shes worried you didnt make it back from ct"...

lets examine this shall we...first of all im going to pretend that arti is code for concert guy...so it was really him who wanted to know where i was...not arti...haha...and second of all i dont remember telling that i was going to ct on tuesday...when i saw him last monday i told him about the other 2 concerts that i already went to but i didnt say anything about tuesdays show...cause i remember when i got on the train i thought to myself "oh i should have told him that i wont be here tomorrow"...but i do remember telling him a long time ago about the 3 shows...maybe i said something about them all being right by each other...did he remember from back then?...how is that possible?...or did i say something monday and completely forget about it?...maybe in all the excitment i said im going again tomorrow...but i dont think so...but i must have cause how did he know?!?...oh boy and im the one who claims to have a good memory...haha!...

well either way i know i didnt go on and on about it to him like i do with everyone else...so im going to take the fact that he knew where i was (even though i dont remember telling him) as a sign that he actually pays attention when i talk to him...and it could be just one more sign telling me that im not crazy and he WAS in fact flirting with me all those times ive mentioned before...haha...doubt it!...haha...but ill just pretend that it means way more than it really does just so i can feel good about myself!...haha!...

thats it for now kiddies...do you think im still crazy???...probably right? (*heads nodding yes*)...oh well...it is what it is... = )

who do i think i am?

last week i purchased a brand new car!!! yay!!! its a 2010 cadillac srx crossover...its white with tan and brown interior...and shes beautiful!!! i still cant believe i bought a cadi...it hasnt sunk in yet that its acually mine...if you asked my last year what my next car would be cadillac wouldnt even have crossed my mind...even 2 months ago i wouldnt have said that...

it all started when i went to disney for my birthday...as you may or may not know test track at epcot is sponsored by gm...so when you get off the ride they have a giant display room where they have all the latest and future models of gm cars...i saw the srx and fell in love (why cant it be that easy with guys???...haha)...i sat in the drivers seat and that was it...i knew at that moment that it was the car i needed to have...once i made up my mind that was it...

two weekends ago i began my search...we headed over to crown cadillac on rt 22 "just to look"...we met andy there (who is the best salesman ever!)...he showed us the ins and outs of the car and i took one out for a test drive and my love for the car grew...at that point i knew looking elsewhere for a new car would just be silly...i signed the papers that day!!!...of course they didnt have the model i wanted so i didnt actually get the car until thurday but it was totally worth the wait...

last weekend i drove it all over the place...i love the sunroof...i love the xm radio...i love the ipod hookup...i love the bluetooth...i love the heated seats (okay so i havent used these yet but i know ill love then in the winter)...i love the miles to empty...i love the automatic start...i love the push button start/stop...i love the new car smell...i love the color...i love that i figured out where the digital clock is...i love how easy it is to adjust my seat...i love the leather dashboard...i love all the hidden compartments...i love that i can set the height for the trunk...i love the cool limo lighting at night...i love the bright headlights...i love it all!!!

i would highly recommend the srx to everyone it is amazing!...and for anyone whos in the market for a new cadi go to crown cadillac and ask for andy!...he is freakin awesome!!!...i think part of the reason i love the car so much is because he was so excited showing me all the features...he seemed to genuinly care about me and my car...so thanks for everything andy!!!

let the summer fun begin!!!

how is it possible that its june one already?!?...thats crazy talk right...is this year flying by as fast for everyone else as it is for me???

memorial day was yesterday and you know what that means!...ITS SUMMER!!!...yay!!!!...this summer is going to be a good one i can tell already...i have a lot on my agenda...and im going to make the most of every second!...it all kicked off with the awesome memorial day picnic at the compound thrown by bubbles and f.u.n!

before i get into details of the picnic i want to give a shout out to dead sexy!!!...hes upset that i havent mentioned him yet...i dont like to disappoint my readers so heeyyyy! what up dead sexy!....in case youre wondering who this guy is ill fill you in right now...dead sexy is big brother's bff...and he is probably one of the funniest people i have ever met...if you ever come across this guy in your life please ask him to show you some of the yoga moves from his p90x dvd...haha...i almost peed my pants when he showed me!...haha!!!...

okay back to the picnic...there were tons of people there...and tons of delicious food...i def ate WAY too much...i played mario kart wii with squish and his bff (who happens to be the son of dead sexy)...i watched some intense wiffle ball games...i decided that doug is a professional Frisbee player...i found a date to the princesses wedding...lets call him plus one...haha...he happens to be the mayor's bff...(wow there are a lot of bff's in this entry...haha)...i got burnt (not nearly as bad as plus one...the poor kid)...i slept on a couch...i stayed out of all drama...i had an AMAZING day!!!

it looks like im at my stop already...so i must be going but dont panic ill be back another day with another story!...talk to you later!!!