eh...maybe not...

so last week i was all kinds of excited over the idea of concert guy and the fact that i stepped up and actually talk to him...that was huge for me...but now that i think about it the chances of him turning from fobo to bofo are slim to none...if my speculation is correct then there is really nothing i can do that would make him want to date me...too bad for me...

of course i still want to be friends with concert guy...so far he seems like a good guy and i would probably have tons of fun with him if we were to hang out outside of the train...and he would be good to keep around if i need a wedding date in the future...ya know...hopefully we become closer friends...and maybe just maybe (even if my speculation is true) he wouldnt mind helping a friend out in the josie grossie department...that would be awesome...hey my deadline is quickly approaching so i dont have much time left...i'll have to work fast...haha...concert guy will just have to go on the accelerated program like bff did last summer (i felt like i knew him for years after just 1 month...lol...)...

so in closing...maybe i should start picking boys to crush on that i actually have a chance with...or maybe i should stop looking all together...they say it comes when you least expect it...but i dont care if i expect it or not...as long as its soon!!!

new guy is out...

...and concert guy is in! (or did i call him train guy???...i cant remember...haha)

so after all that drama that was my summer crush on new guy i think im totally over it now (almost 6 months later)...of course when f.u.n. and bff talk about him i say things like "did he tell you he secretly loves me?"...and then laugh...haha...to be honest i never had any real hope for a relationship there...i just thought he was hot!...well i think i'll always think hes hot...hehe...=)...he was kinda like a reach bofo...almost like a reach school when your applying for college...ya know...you really want to go there and you dont think you'll get in but you apply anyway...so yeah thats that but i still cant wait for the summer to come rolling around again just so i can catch another glimpse of him...(does that sound creepy???)...

now onto concert/train guy...in case you missed it (or forgot) concert guy is the cute guy who takes the 713 in the morning and said heeeyyy to me at beatstock this summer...ever since the concert i have been wanting to say hi to him at the train but i was too scared...(hey after what happened whenever i tried to talk to new guy can you blame me?...haha)... then i made some new train friends and every morning we would chat...mostly about the fact that we wanted to make concert guy our friend...finally a few weeks ago the weird lady who talks to us in the morning saw concert guy on the train home so she sat next to him and made friends...perfect! now we had an in...and yet i was still scared to say hi (wow what a loser...haha)...but everything changed on monday feb 1...a new month, a new out look on life...the weird lady said thats it im going over there...so she went and we followed...so yay i have officially met train guy and im no longer afraid to talk to him...even better on tuesday none of my other train friends were there so i talked to concert guy all by myself AND i invited him to meet us after work on friday!...

its just baby steps but im proud of myself!...i cant wait until friday...lets see what happens!!! =)