summer of eleven...

...yeah, it was heaven!!!

i hate to say it but labor day was yesterday and you know what that means...summer is unofficially over...boo!!!...the end of the summer is always a little sad for me...so instead of dwelling on it lets talk about all the awesome times i had this summer!!!

most of my weekends were spent dts...i dont really do anything special while im there but just being there is special in and of itself...i love everything about being down there...i love hanging out on our deck all day long...i love listening to music outside...i love getting a tan...i love that you can go out to breakfast in your pjs and messy hair and no one cares...i love watching movies on the beach while digging my feet into the sand...i love gazing at the stars trying to find the little dipper...i love being super close to my little squish...i love lounging in the baby pool...i love all the family drama...i love crawling back into bed to watch a movie if it gets too hot (or too chilly...haha) outside...i love joking and laughing with everyone...i love discussing strategies to find the best time to go home to get the least amount of traffic...i love taking a shower outside...i just love it all!!!

besides all the greatness of being down the shore i also had a really amazing backstreet summer...i went to 6 nkotbsb concerts...experienced my first (and 2nd and 3rd) vip...and most importantly i made a bunch of new friends thanks to the boys!...these girls have been so great all summer...we've exchanged countless emails sharing all kinds of things...yes i have little sis and little one to talk about bsb with but i really enjoy having all these new girls to share my thoughts and opinions with...we even had a bsb weekend...we watched old videos and played the board game and had a really fun time...(it you want to read more about the weekend my friend laura gave a quick recap over on her blog...so check it out here! )...

i know that my obsession level got up close to where it was during the black and blue era...maybe even surpassed it...i dont know...its close...haha!!...but who cares?!...im having fun and thats all that matters!!!

so only down side to this summer is that it came and went and i have made zero progress on the clark kent front...ugh!...sports guy comes back from vacay tomorrow so ill have to have a chat with him and get the ball rolling with that...

well i hope everyone had a spectacular summer like i did...lets see what the fall has in store for me...i hope its good!!! =)

until next time happy blogging!!!

the official soundtrack of the summer of ten

thats right folks i have created an official soundtrack to the summer of ten!...i know that you are all yelling at the screen saying "but ashley, its practically winter...what are you doing still talking about the summer???"...well the answer to that is a simple one...i am a procrastinator...haha!!!...durring the summer k dubbs and i decided we would create a cd with all of our summer songs on it...so this way we could listen to it and remember the awesome summer we had!!...so every time we came up with a song we would put it on the list...having a list was great...too bad it took me 2 months to put the list onto an actual cd for listening enjoyment...i finally have it and it totally brings back memories from the summer...goal accomplished!...

so without further ado i bring you the track list (along with a little blerb) to the official soundtrack of the summer of ten!!!

1) taio cruz ~> dynamite ~> the first time i heard this song was at my friends wedding in july...k dubbs was with me and she said "how about this sound for our cd?"...i said i never heard it before...next thing i knew it was all over the place...LOVE IT!!!...so i went back to k dubbs and told her its def going on!!!

2) jason derulo ~> in my head~> this song doesnt really have a story we just like it!...haha!

3) backstreet boys~> bigger~>i took k dubbs to her first backstreet concert this summer...so its only natural that a song from their newest album made the list!

4)dj otzi ~> hey baby~> ob1 offered free zumba classes...we went to them on a weekly basis...this was our fav song from class...if you dont know it download it...i promise you'll love it!!!

5)big time rush~> halfway there~> thanks to my litttle bff i became completely obsessed with btr...turns out k dubbs loved them too...haha...so of course they made the cut!

6) diamonds on my neck~> okay so i have no idea who sings this of if thats really what its called...but its one of those fun songs that you blast in the car and have tons of funs with

7) shontelle~> impossible~> no story relating to my adventures with k dubbs but i did dance to this song in my makeshift dance class

8) the script~> breakeven~> no story...just like it! =)

9) mike posner~> cooler than me~> same as above

10) michael buble~> havent met you yet~> love this song...gives me hope

11) b.o.b ~> airplanes ~>okay so im not crazy about this song but k dubbs likes it AND it has a good story...during the summer i like to sit outside and look at the stars...so i have seen many shooting stars over the years...but people would always say to me "are you sure its a shooting star and not an airplane?"...of course im sure!!!...anyway...this is why i find the chorus of this song to be so awesome

12) taio cruz~> break your heart~> please see number 8

13) selena gomez~> naturally~> this song doesnt really remind me of the summer...it reminds me of the spring...one of the nights i hung out with concert guy and co. we were on our way home...this song came on the radio...we turned it up super loud and everyone sung along...good times!...

14) backstreet boys~> panic~> this song makes the list because of its name...when we were in disney for my bday my little bff said to me on one of the rides "its dark...dont panic ashley"...it was one of the top quotes from the trip and we used it all summer...dont panic!

15) usher~> dj got us fallin in love~> this song wasnt even on the list...i just added it cause i still had space...and i love it!!!...haha!!!

16) miranda~> vamos a la playa~> as you know the world cup we this summer...the mayor was obsessed with spain...so every time they had a game the mayor would play this song to get into the spanish spirit i guess...i really could care less about soccer but the do think that this is a super fun song!!!

17) michael franti ~> say hey (i love you)~> this is just a happy feel good song...makes me smile!

18) 3oh!3 ~> my first kiss~> this song reminds me of kent on sytycd...i think its a fun song...so why not put it on...right?!

19) shots! ~> no idea who sings this...maybe its lmfao...i dont know...but who really cares...if you went to any sort of club or party or somethin this summer im sure you heard it...i dont even take shots and i love this song...it just gets you pumped and ready to go!!!

well thats it for my soundtrack...sooo...what do you think???...lol...and what songs remind you of the summer???...or do any of these songs remind you of something good?...please share...dont be afraid (or panic...haha)...i would love to know...maybe i missed something really good!...haha!!! =)

let the summer fun begin!!!

how is it possible that its june one already?!?...thats crazy talk right...is this year flying by as fast for everyone else as it is for me???

memorial day was yesterday and you know what that means!...ITS SUMMER!!!...yay!!!!...this summer is going to be a good one i can tell already...i have a lot on my agenda...and im going to make the most of every second!...it all kicked off with the awesome memorial day picnic at the compound thrown by bubbles and f.u.n!

before i get into details of the picnic i want to give a shout out to dead sexy!!!...hes upset that i havent mentioned him yet...i dont like to disappoint my readers so heeyyyy! what up dead sexy!....in case youre wondering who this guy is ill fill you in right now...dead sexy is big brother's bff...and he is probably one of the funniest people i have ever met...if you ever come across this guy in your life please ask him to show you some of the yoga moves from his p90x dvd...haha...i almost peed my pants when he showed me!...haha!!!...

okay back to the picnic...there were tons of people there...and tons of delicious food...i def ate WAY too much...i played mario kart wii with squish and his bff (who happens to be the son of dead sexy)...i watched some intense wiffle ball games...i decided that doug is a professional Frisbee player...i found a date to the princesses wedding...lets call him plus one...haha...he happens to be the mayor's bff...(wow there are a lot of bff's in this entry...haha)...i got burnt (not nearly as bad as plus one...the poor kid)...i slept on a couch...i stayed out of all drama...i had an AMAZING day!!!

it looks like im at my stop already...so i must be going but dont panic ill be back another day with another story!...talk to you later!!!

sittin in my spot

greetings from the jersey shore!!! its memorial day weekend and the summer has officially begun!...yay!!!...i think my slogan for this summer is gonna be "summer of ten, bring on the men!"...haha!

well anyway im reporting to you live from my favorite spot down here...if you know me and you know the compound then you totally know where my spot is...in the corner of the deck looking out at the bay...love it!...but only at night...during the day its just an ordinary spot but at night its magical!...on clear nights i like to look at the stars...i see a lot of shooting stars and always make a wish...i would tell you what my wishes are but then they wont come true so mum is the word!...haha!...i also like to look out into the bay...and listen to the water...its very peaceful out here!...

i do some of my best thinking out here in my spot...i think about all kinds of things out here...im not gonna lie most of it is about boys...haha...i imagine all kinds of things...this is the best spot to escape reality for a little bit and live in a fantasy world...(and ps i always have a bofo in my fantasy world...haha!)...

well i must go now because other people are invading my spot...so i guess i will be social and talk to them!...until next time happy blogging!

can i get a do-over

with the summer quickly coming to an end i look back and i wish i could rewind to the beginning and start over...sure i had tons of fun...

• i went down the shore almost every weekend...
• i started hanging out with my girl k dubbs...
• i got a nice tan...
• i went bowling...
• i watched a whole bunch of movies...
• i swam in the ocean, a real pool and a blow up pool...
• i made s'mores...
• i saw backstreet boys in concert...
• i wished on shooting stars...
• i slept outside for the first time ever...
• i did way more than my fair share of laughing...
• and whole bunch of other fun things...

but all of this is just more of the same for me...the one thing i want more than anything never seems to happen...and im not just talking about new guy...while that would have been a dream come true, any guy would have been good...the sad part is i know its 1000% my fault...i say i want a boyfriend and yet i do absolutely nothing to make it happen...how can i be that stupid to think that prince charming is just going to knock on my door...

its all an evil cycle really that i cant seem to get out of...i feel like an idiot due to my lack of experience in the boy department...this translates to zero confidence and fear of rejection...which leads to me not even trying...and then before i know it another year passes by without any change...so i feel even more like an idiot and the cycle starts all over...i gotta get out!...but how???...and dont say oh just get out there and meet new people...yeah its easy for most people to say but for me, not so much...i cant just get out there...i have social anxiety and i have it bad...

ugh...i hate being all "woe is me" but its just so frustrating to want to change my life but not be able to...even if i did get the chance to redo this summer knowing everything i know now, it would probably end up the same exact way...obviously life doesnt provide time travel so it is what it is...

but what if i could change the past and actually do things differently...i def would not have made all the mistakes i mentioned before...maybe just maybe my biggest problem right now would be that my brand new boyfriend just moved to hawaii...haha...oh how i wish...haha!!!

oh well...all i can do now is try to change moving forward from this moment...lets see if i can...fingers crossed...believing i can do it is half the battle, right?