unfortunately today was concert guys last day taking the good ol njtransit 713...so sad right?...im def gonna miss him...im also a little jealous that he doesnt have to deal with the stupid train ever again...its really been a nightmare lately...anyway i guess its story time now...haha...
so this morning when i got to the train he confessed his true feelings for me so we're gonna go on lots of dates and fall madly in love and live happily ever after...oh wait...that only happened in my imagination...haha!!!...
in real life nothing nearly as exciting happened...he just said standard things like "you guys will have to come visit me in hoboken" and "i'll be around dont worry"...but i know the chances are that ill never see him again...oh well...the school girl crush was fun while it lasted...now its time to move on...so readers if you know any single, straight, 25plus guys SET ME UP!...its not that hard...i know you can do it...haha!...
oh man...is this my stop already?...it cant be i barely wrote anything yet...well i was on twitter for a while...so that could be where the time went...speaking of twitter if youre not following me you should be...haha... @ashalia11
i guess we will continue chatting another time..well its not really chatting...more like me rambling on and on and you reading...but it works... =)
Showing posts with label train friends. Show all posts
Showing posts with label train friends. Show all posts
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
713 drama
earlier today i was writing in my trusty blog all about how truly crazy wet hair girl is...then i realized that i was being really mean...and i dont want my blog to be mean...i want it to be fun and happy and silly and boy crazy...haha!...so i decided to erase the post...also i really cant remember if i ever gave her the link to this...if she ever read the things i was writing...friendship def over!...well to be honest im on the verge of phasing her out...i dont think i can handle the crazy anymore...it was entertaining for a while but now im over it...
i feel really bad about this because i remember how crappy i felt when my high school friends phased me out...it was horrend!...but there are some major differences...1) im not crazy! and 2) i was bff with these people for years...wet hair girl has been my train friend for a few months...so its totally different right???...or am i just an awful person???
shes been pretty nutty all along but the thing that set her over the edge was when she left concert guy and his friends at a bar in belmar with no ride home and all of their stuff was in her car...and then she refused to give the stuff back...so bizzar right?!?...this was a situation that had absolutely nothing to do with me (because i wasnt there) but since she refused to talk to concert guy or his friends she put me in the middle...this fight blew up so big that now its 2 weeks later and they still dont talk to each other and concert guy doesnt stand in our spot in the morning anymore...so some days i stand with him and some days i stand with her...yesterday im pretty sure she was mad at me for standing with concert guy...its so stupid...hes still my friend and neither of us did anything wrong...did i mention that im 100% on his side in this stupid fight...and no my judgment is not skewed because i think hes dreamy...haha!...im on his side because wet hair girl is capital C crazy!!!!...i better stop with that story there before i get mean again...oops...lol...
oh which brings me to another talking point...every time i chat with concert guy it becomes increasingly difficult not to mention my blog...its a force of habit for me to tell everyone i talk to to read my blog...when we talk about wet hair girl i have the urge to say something like "oh that is so going in my blog"...or "you need to read what i said about her in my blog!"...or (what i say to most people) "dont you read my blog?"...haha!...but then i quickly realize what a HUGE mistake that would be and keep my mouth shut...haha!...im sure he would appreciate what i have to say about wet hair girl and arti but i dont think i could handle it if he read everything i wrote about him!...i think that would be disastrous for me...talk about embarrassing...oh god...after reading he might put me in the crazy category with wet hair girl...and who wants that???...not me thats fo sho...im worried its gonna slip out one day...and then what?...what if he wants the address?...what am i going to say?..."sorry i cant give you that information because pretty much every entry is about you and i just cant let you read it"...i think that would make him want to read it more....dont you?!?...
i guess i will just have to be extra careful...i cant mention my blog or twitter around any of the train friends or their friends...(well i guess arti would be okay to read it...but im her least favorite so she wouldnt care...actually now that she thinks wet hair girl is a floozy i may have moved up a spot...yessss!!!...haha!)...but if it does slip out i will just have to except the consequences...see what happens when you talk about people...nothing good...haha!
well until next time...happy blogging! =)
i feel really bad about this because i remember how crappy i felt when my high school friends phased me out...it was horrend!...but there are some major differences...1) im not crazy! and 2) i was bff with these people for years...wet hair girl has been my train friend for a few months...so its totally different right???...or am i just an awful person???
shes been pretty nutty all along but the thing that set her over the edge was when she left concert guy and his friends at a bar in belmar with no ride home and all of their stuff was in her car...and then she refused to give the stuff back...so bizzar right?!?...this was a situation that had absolutely nothing to do with me (because i wasnt there) but since she refused to talk to concert guy or his friends she put me in the middle...this fight blew up so big that now its 2 weeks later and they still dont talk to each other and concert guy doesnt stand in our spot in the morning anymore...so some days i stand with him and some days i stand with her...yesterday im pretty sure she was mad at me for standing with concert guy...its so stupid...hes still my friend and neither of us did anything wrong...did i mention that im 100% on his side in this stupid fight...and no my judgment is not skewed because i think hes dreamy...haha!...im on his side because wet hair girl is capital C crazy!!!!...i better stop with that story there before i get mean again...oops...lol...
oh which brings me to another talking point...every time i chat with concert guy it becomes increasingly difficult not to mention my blog...its a force of habit for me to tell everyone i talk to to read my blog...when we talk about wet hair girl i have the urge to say something like "oh that is so going in my blog"...or "you need to read what i said about her in my blog!"...or (what i say to most people) "dont you read my blog?"...haha!...but then i quickly realize what a HUGE mistake that would be and keep my mouth shut...haha!...im sure he would appreciate what i have to say about wet hair girl and arti but i dont think i could handle it if he read everything i wrote about him!...i think that would be disastrous for me...talk about embarrassing...oh god...after reading he might put me in the crazy category with wet hair girl...and who wants that???...not me thats fo sho...im worried its gonna slip out one day...and then what?...what if he wants the address?...what am i going to say?..."sorry i cant give you that information because pretty much every entry is about you and i just cant let you read it"...i think that would make him want to read it more....dont you?!?...
i guess i will just have to be extra careful...i cant mention my blog or twitter around any of the train friends or their friends...(well i guess arti would be okay to read it...but im her least favorite so she wouldnt care...actually now that she thinks wet hair girl is a floozy i may have moved up a spot...yessss!!!...haha!)...but if it does slip out i will just have to except the consequences...see what happens when you talk about people...nothing good...haha!
well until next time...happy blogging! =)
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
why are boys so difficult???
clearly i have more trouble than your average 24 year old when it comes to boys...well maybe not more but def different!...i have a hard time expressing any confidence in this area due to lack of experience...but how am i going to get any experience without having confidence in myself...its an evil circle im stuck in and im not really going to discuss it too much because i think i already have...and because im not here to throw myself a pity party...all i want to do today is examine the facts...
this weekend i went out with concert guy (as mentioned in yesterday's entry)...relax it wasnt just the two of us...although i wish it was!...hehe...it was concert guy, a few of his friends, wet hair girl and me...we went to v lounge in new brunswick...got lost going there and coming home...danced the night away...and had tons of fun!!!
as the night went on i came to the realization that concert guy probably sees me as a friend only...ugh...i had such high hopes for this one...there was ZERO flirting going on...not even things that i pretend are flirting even though they're really not...haha!...
i drove everyone there and he didnt even sit in the front seat...and it would make perfect sense for him to sit in the front because 1) he was the only boy and 2) hes like 10 feet tall (okay maybe not 10 feet but he is tall)...why would he want to sit in the back?...actually now that i think about it they probably planned that for reasons that have nothing to do with me and everything to do with the fact that i dont think they wanted to sit next to wet hair girl...oh well...but still no front seat...haha!...
another thing...i am a freakin awesome dancer! (i dont want to sound conceded or anything like that but its true)...i was whipping out some of my best moves and yet not once the whole night did he dance with me...maybe i was too good...yeah lets say that...haha!...at least on the way home he said how awesome i am about a million times...i dont think any of them were expecting me to be that good...i love the shock value...=)
so anyway i have decided that if concert guy just wants to be friends then thats okay...im done over analyzing every little move...if something happens great...if not oh well...its not any different from any other time in my life ive had a school girl crush on a boy...
my situation is what it is...its silly to dwell on it...i mean i passed pathetic a long time ago...now its just whatever this is who i am deal with it...so im moving on from constantly feeling sorry for myself...things will work out for me one day...but for now im going to be happy being just who i am! =)
this weekend i went out with concert guy (as mentioned in yesterday's entry)...relax it wasnt just the two of us...although i wish it was!...hehe...it was concert guy, a few of his friends, wet hair girl and me...we went to v lounge in new brunswick...got lost going there and coming home...danced the night away...and had tons of fun!!!
as the night went on i came to the realization that concert guy probably sees me as a friend only...ugh...i had such high hopes for this one...there was ZERO flirting going on...not even things that i pretend are flirting even though they're really not...haha!...
i drove everyone there and he didnt even sit in the front seat...and it would make perfect sense for him to sit in the front because 1) he was the only boy and 2) hes like 10 feet tall (okay maybe not 10 feet but he is tall)...why would he want to sit in the back?...actually now that i think about it they probably planned that for reasons that have nothing to do with me and everything to do with the fact that i dont think they wanted to sit next to wet hair girl...oh well...but still no front seat...haha!...
another thing...i am a freakin awesome dancer! (i dont want to sound conceded or anything like that but its true)...i was whipping out some of my best moves and yet not once the whole night did he dance with me...maybe i was too good...yeah lets say that...haha!...at least on the way home he said how awesome i am about a million times...i dont think any of them were expecting me to be that good...i love the shock value...=)
so anyway i have decided that if concert guy just wants to be friends then thats okay...im done over analyzing every little move...if something happens great...if not oh well...its not any different from any other time in my life ive had a school girl crush on a boy...
my situation is what it is...its silly to dwell on it...i mean i passed pathetic a long time ago...now its just whatever this is who i am deal with it...so im moving on from constantly feeling sorry for myself...things will work out for me one day...but for now im going to be happy being just who i am! =)
Monday, April 19, 2010
dance class!
yay!!! finally im back in dance class!!!
the first class was last week...so much fun! we did all kinds of old school stuff and turns and time steps and salsa and just about everything else...i dont think i can express in words how much i really missed it!
after the studio closed my life became pretty boring...i went to work...came home...went to sleep...woke up and did the same thing the next day...ugh...so lame right...not only was i not in dance class but i wasnt seeing my friends as often as i used to...because they were my dance friends i would see them in class and it would be so easy to make plans for the weekend...but now we barely see each other...and i miss them!...so now that im back in class my life is slightly less boring...now i can say "i went to dance class monday night!"...and hopefully ill get to hang out with the lifers more often!!!...
tonight is the second class and i cant wait to get there!...im still super tired from lack of sleep this weekend but it doesnt matter...dance class trumps everything...even an extra hour of sleep...=)
oh and ps...sat night i went to a loungey/cluby place with the train friends...concert guy totally thinks im an awesome dancer!...and to that i say "please, i dont mess around...when i say im good...i mean im good!"...=)
the first class was last week...so much fun! we did all kinds of old school stuff and turns and time steps and salsa and just about everything else...i dont think i can express in words how much i really missed it!
after the studio closed my life became pretty boring...i went to work...came home...went to sleep...woke up and did the same thing the next day...ugh...so lame right...not only was i not in dance class but i wasnt seeing my friends as often as i used to...because they were my dance friends i would see them in class and it would be so easy to make plans for the weekend...but now we barely see each other...and i miss them!...so now that im back in class my life is slightly less boring...now i can say "i went to dance class monday night!"...and hopefully ill get to hang out with the lifers more often!!!...
tonight is the second class and i cant wait to get there!...im still super tired from lack of sleep this weekend but it doesnt matter...dance class trumps everything...even an extra hour of sleep...=)
oh and ps...sat night i went to a loungey/cluby place with the train friends...concert guy totally thinks im an awesome dancer!...and to that i say "please, i dont mess around...when i say im good...i mean im good!"...=)
Monday, March 22, 2010
i need to take flirting 101
hello there blog readers!
i have decided that i really need to learn how to flirt...i am clueless...and whats worse is i dont even think i would be able to tell if someone was flirting with me...this is def a life skill that i am laking...it would be helpful in accomplishing some of my boy related goals...dont you think so? i do!...haha!...
of course there's a story to go along with this new plan that took me WAY too long to come up with...(flirting...so easy...why didnt i think of it sooner???...haha!)
i have been hanging out with concert guy a lot lately (and by a lot i mean we hung out once like a month ago and then 3 nights in a row this week)...these past few times we were together i couldnt tell if he was flirting with me or not...lets examine the clues shall we...
1) he always makes a point to ask me to sit next to him
2) one night when i was leaving i went to say goodbye with the standard semi air kiss on the cheek...ya know just mwah and back off (this was my plan of action based on how he was saying goodnight to everyone else)...but he choose to go with the extended hug option after the semi air kiss on the cheek...(does this one even make any sense???)...the reason it makes the list is because thats the way i great or depart someone i care about...not just some train friend...AND i was the only one to get the extended hug...
3) saturday night concert guy told wet hair girl that his friend had a crush on her...before the friend came wet hair girl was getting nervous (which didnt really make a whole lot of sense because she lives with her boyfriend)...so concert guy said just relax and flirt with him a little...so she said i havent flirted with anyone in so long i dont know what to do (big lies...she flirts with all the boys all the time)...so concert guy was like its easy you can just touch his thigh, it means you're into him...and as he said it he was touching MY thigh!...the following was going on in my head: oh.mygod...really?!?...is he really touching my leg right now???...oh no what does my face look like? shocked im sure...good thing its dark so no one can see the bright red color im probably turning...i must keep my reaction under controll...lol...(wow am i a nut case or what?!?...haha)...instead of freaking out in my mind i should have said something clever...but clearly i couldnt think of anything...so anyway after the fact i started thinking was he doing that because he really was flirting with me???...he even said hey retard THIS means im flirting with you...OR was i simply just used as an example because i was sitting next to him (which brings us back to point number 1...haha)...im sure its the later of the 2 but it may not be...ya know...
4) well thats really all i got...there may have been other things but like i said im not the best at reading the flirt...haha!
as you can tell im a mess...if i was given a flirting test right now i would probably get a zero...haha...i need help kids...so if anyone out there knows of some type of flirting class i really need it...cause the more i hang out with concert guy the more intense the silly crush i have on him gets...i cant let another one slip away...i refuse!
Thursday, March 4, 2010
wishy washy no more
at the time of my last post i was on the fence about concert guy...but now im off the fence and 100% in school girl crush mode...haha...also thanks to wet hair girl (and some facebook stalking...haha) i am now about 95% sure that my speculation is FALSE!!!...
so what does all this mean???...well nothing really yet...but there is a plan...so far everytime wet hair girl and i have come up with a plan reguarding concert guy it has worked...so lets hope this plan works too!!! would you like to know what the plan is??? well im gonna tell you no worries...haha...but first lets rewind a bit...before we really even met concert guy and wet hair girl would always say to me things like"i want you to date him" and "i would love to set you guys up"...i say no objections here!...so the plan is for her to start saying those types of things to him about me when they take the train home together and im not around...its almost perfect because i avoid any awkwardness and the seed gets planted in his head that hey im available...okay its totally lame but who cares right...at least its something...fingers crossed...haha!
also (this doesnt really have anything to do with the plan but i thought i would share anyway) i just realized today that i knew who concert guy was way before the train and way before the concert...when i was in college i worked at a summer day camp..this camp was located at a swim club...guess who was a lifeguard at the swim club...thats right concert guy...how weird is that???...i knew him before i knew him...i still cant get over it...
well thats it for now...let me know what you think...
untill next time happy blogging!!!
so what does all this mean???...well nothing really yet...but there is a plan...so far everytime wet hair girl and i have come up with a plan reguarding concert guy it has worked...so lets hope this plan works too!!! would you like to know what the plan is??? well im gonna tell you no worries...haha...but first lets rewind a bit...before we really even met concert guy and wet hair girl would always say to me things like"i want you to date him" and "i would love to set you guys up"...i say no objections here!...so the plan is for her to start saying those types of things to him about me when they take the train home together and im not around...its almost perfect because i avoid any awkwardness and the seed gets planted in his head that hey im available...okay its totally lame but who cares right...at least its something...fingers crossed...haha!
also (this doesnt really have anything to do with the plan but i thought i would share anyway) i just realized today that i knew who concert guy was way before the train and way before the concert...when i was in college i worked at a summer day camp..this camp was located at a swim club...guess who was a lifeguard at the swim club...thats right concert guy...how weird is that???...i knew him before i knew him...i still cant get over it...
well thats it for now...let me know what you think...
untill next time happy blogging!!!
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