sittin in my spot

greetings from the jersey shore!!! its memorial day weekend and the summer has officially begun!...yay!!!...i think my slogan for this summer is gonna be "summer of ten, bring on the men!"...haha!

well anyway im reporting to you live from my favorite spot down here...if you know me and you know the compound then you totally know where my spot is...in the corner of the deck looking out at the bay...love it!...but only at night...during the day its just an ordinary spot but at night its magical!...on clear nights i like to look at the stars...i see a lot of shooting stars and always make a wish...i would tell you what my wishes are but then they wont come true so mum is the word!...haha!...i also like to look out into the bay...and listen to the water...its very peaceful out here!...

i do some of my best thinking out here in my spot...i think about all kinds of things out here...im not gonna lie most of it is about boys...haha...i imagine all kinds of things...this is the best spot to escape reality for a little bit and live in a fantasy world...(and ps i always have a bofo in my fantasy world...haha!)...

well i must go now because other people are invading my spot...so i guess i will be social and talk to them!...until next time happy blogging!

email group!

when i first started working almost 3 years ago (wow has it been that long already?!?) i was in email group with the fam...not everyone in the fam...just a select few...haha!...it was a good way to keep in touch with everyone...and hear all the side commentary we all had on just about everything...email group was pretty awesome...until one day i got in trouble at work for sending too many personal emails...apparently when you send 1 email to 10 people it counts as 10 emails...ugh...that was not a good day for me...sadly i had to quit email group right away...

while email group was alive and kickin we were pretty serious about it...big brother drafted up an official list of email group rules...it was almost like fight club...they were rules to live by if you were in email group!...yeah, we were that awesome...haha!

i bring all this up today because i was looking through old files on my computer and i found the rules list!...it made me laugh and remember the good ol' days of email group...i know you are all dying to read them so without further ado here are the official rules of email group!!!

1) you dont talk about email group
2) you dont talk about email group
3) when someone says stop, let it go, or enough...you STOP
4) if you plan on adding a new person to email group you must have written consent of the other members. (see below approved list)
5) you cannot and Will not speak to anyone not on the email group about any subject discussed on the email group. MAJOR INFRACTION YOU WILL JUST BE REMOVED AND NEVER SPOKEN TO AGAIN
6) if someone asks to be removed because they are busy everyone must comply. (Rule does not apply to bubbles at this moment...we will revise WHEN SHE GETS A JOB!)
7) if it is your 1st week on email group you must be the first email every work day for that first week

approved list:
bubbles, ashley, big sis, big brother, the mayor, little one, and the princess

wow...how special were we?!?...haha!!!

*please note that these rules were written before tv girl joined the group...

i know what your all thinking right now...i'm in violation of rules 1 and 2...*GASP*...but the way i look at it is we havent had email group in well over a year (maybe 2) so my violations are irrelevant...right?!?...at least i hope so...=)

713 drama

earlier today i was writing in my trusty blog all about how truly crazy wet hair girl is...then i realized that i was being really mean...and i dont want my blog to be mean...i want it to be fun and happy and silly and boy crazy...haha!...so i decided to erase the post...also i really cant remember if i ever gave her the link to this...if she ever read the things i was writing...friendship def over!...well to be honest im on the verge of phasing her out...i dont think i can handle the crazy anymore...it was entertaining for a while but now im over it...

i feel really bad about this because i remember how crappy i felt when my high school friends phased me out...it was horrend!...but there are some major differences...1) im not crazy! and 2) i was bff with these people for years...wet hair girl has been my train friend for a few months...so its totally different right???...or am i just an awful person???

shes been pretty nutty all along but the thing that set her over the edge was when she left concert guy and his friends at a bar in belmar with no ride home and all of their stuff was in her car...and then she refused to give the stuff back...so bizzar right?!?...this was a situation that had absolutely nothing to do with me (because i wasnt there) but since she refused to talk to concert guy or his friends she put me in the middle...this fight blew up so big that now its 2 weeks later and they still dont talk to each other and concert guy doesnt stand in our spot in the morning anymore...so some days i stand with him and some days i stand with her...yesterday im pretty sure she was mad at me for standing with concert guy...its so stupid...hes still my friend and neither of us did anything wrong...did i mention that im 100% on his side in this stupid fight...and no my judgment is not skewed because i think hes dreamy...haha!...im on his side because wet hair girl is capital C crazy!!!!...i better stop with that story there before i get mean again...oops...lol...

oh which brings me to another talking point...every time i chat with concert guy it becomes increasingly difficult not to mention my blog...its a force of habit for me to tell everyone i talk to to read my blog...when we talk about wet hair girl i have the urge to say something like "oh that is so going in my blog"...or "you need to read what i said about her in my blog!"...or (what i say to most people) "dont you read my blog?"...haha!...but then i quickly realize what a HUGE mistake that would be and keep my mouth shut...haha!...im sure he would appreciate what i have to say about wet hair girl and arti but i dont think i could handle it if he read everything i wrote about him!...i think that would be disastrous for me...talk about embarrassing...oh god...after reading he might put me in the crazy category with wet hair girl...and who wants that???...not me thats fo sho...im worried its gonna slip out one day...and then what?...what if he wants the address?...what am i going to say?..."sorry i cant give you that information because pretty much every entry is about you and i just cant let you read it"...i think that would make him want to read it more....dont you?!?...

i guess i will just have to be extra careful...i cant mention my blog or twitter around any of the train friends or their friends...(well i guess arti would be okay to read it...but im her least favorite so she wouldnt care...actually now that she thinks wet hair girl is a floozy i may have moved up a spot...yessss!!!...haha!)...but if it does slip out i will just have to except the consequences...see what happens when you talk about people...nothing good...haha!

well until next time...happy blogging! =)

big brother is watching

last weekend (sat may 1) i decided to throw myself a birthday party...i really thought that the mayor and little one would be the only people in attendance...boy was i wrong...turns out people actually like me and wanted to come to my party...imagine that...haha!...i didnt know i had it in me to trow a wild party...i had tons of fun and im pretty sure everyone else did too!

unfortunatly bragging about how awesome my party was is not the point of this entry...i only mention it because its where i found out about an additional reader of my delightful little blog (bringing my grand total to 3...haha!!!)...i gained this knowledge because something came up about my train friends and then the following exchange happened:

me~> my train friends were here, did you see them?
big brother~> wait...that was concert guy?!?
me~> omg you read my blog!!!...haha...yeah it was concert guy!!!

just in case you are wondering who big brother is he's my super awesome brother in law...husband to big sis...and father to my little squish-a-lish!!! ive know him since i was about 9 or 10 and we have had some great memories along the way...and many times we are the only 2 who "get it" in the fam...its nice to know there is someone out there who knows when im being sarcastic...haha!...well anyways i love you big brother! <3...

now that i know big brother is watching i feel like theres extra pressure to write something good...and now i kinda feel weird talking about my potentially gay pretend train boyfriend...haha!...eh who am i kidding? im going to still talk about concert guy...so if you are entertained by that story line no worries!...ill keep you informed on any developments there...oh which reminds me i do have a new story about the train friends...look for that in the next few days!...all i have to say about it right now is wet hair girl is CRAZY (i really hope i never gave her the link to this)...haha!!!

in closing if there is anyone else out there who is reading this please let me know and you can get your very own cool blog name and post dedicated to you!

horoscopes

as you may or may not know i was born under the sign of taurus!...and boy am i a taurus!!!...if you look up those websites that give you traits of all the different signs i fit the taurus profile to a tee...stuborn...resists change...loyal...loves nice things...its all me...

i also like to read all about the love compatibility taureans have with other signs...i have discovered that i need to find a nice capricorn or virgo because those are the best matches for taurus...and i need to stay away from leo...those are bad love matches for the taurus (awesome friends! but bad love match)...oh btw...concert guy is totally a virgo!...can i pick them or what...haha!!!...

anyway...i know that horoscopes are silly but i cant help but look at mine on a pretty regular basis...sometimes i read it in the new york post...but most of the time i go to yahoo...i like to know what the stars have planned for me...haha!...today i read my weekly love horoscope and it said the following about the up coming weekend:

"this weekend, you have charm aplenty-- and the ability to asses what it is a certain someone's after, even if they're not saying"

interesting...isnt it?!?...lets look way too much into this shall we...haha!...im totally going to be charming this weekend because um hello its my 25th birthday party local edition!!!...so moving onto the second part is this saying that im finally going to be able to tell what is going on with concert guy?!?...i hope so!...im so over all these guessing games...since i obviously cant stop over analyzing im gonna neeed real answers a sap!...=)

wow...ive been on a blogging role lately...i wonder how long it will last?!?

okay so i lied...nbd...

last post (actually 2 posts ago) i said that i would stop over analyzing everything...yeah that plan isnt working for me...

friday night i went out with the train friends again!...we went to the breakfast club...so much fun!...but i couldnt help but wish my lifers were there with me...they're really the only ones who understand that i wear my sunglasses at night and i wanna dance with somebody!...my train friends dont understand why i love those songs so much and everything that goes with them!!!...omg i miss my lifers! <3...

anyway...i really tried to just be like well this this and this happened friday night and it is what it is...i even received a text from the mayor asking if there was any more questionable flirting going on and i said no because i didnt want to read into anything..ya know...i was doing so well until that text and then my wheels started turning...

after thinking about the events of friday night there is one thing that i cant let go...randomly through out the night concert guy would come over to me and kiss me on the forehead (and one time on the cheek which totally gave my butterflies...haha...)...what is that all about?!?... is it just like "hey friend whats up" like i would kiss my cousin on the cheek?...or is it "heeeyyy, i secretly want to kiss you for real"???...i just dont know!...and how do i find out what his true intentions are???...i mean i cant just say "hey concert guy, if you want to make out with me all you have to do is say so!"...cause what if its the first option?...we would totally be at awkward level 5 the upside down cow!...its hard to recover from that....haha!!!...

see this is why i need to stop over analyzing...i am a nut case...def off my rocker!...haha!...what do you think it means???...i need to know!!!...yeah im crazy...haha!!!...i guess i will just have to wait it out and see what happens next time we hang out...which hopefully will be at my birthday party saturday night!...he says hes coming but ya never know...if he does come the mayor said he will do some recon for me...and then he should be able to confirm or deny my level of craziness...

ummm...i wonder what would happen if someone let slip about my josie grosie situation....maybe concert guy would step up and put me out of my misery!...oh the imagination i have!...haha!!!...see, crazy!...oh boy...i need help...haha!

the mayor

ever since i realized that people in the bloggerverse use cool blog names for everyone they talk about i decided that i should follow suit...i think ive been doing a pretty good job...some are pretty original and others not so much...for the most part its pretty easy to figure out who im talking about if you know me in real life...haha!...anyway yesterday i realized that since i made the change i havent mentioned a super important person in my life...so without further ado i would like to introduce everyone to the most recent addition to my cast of characters: the mayor!

of course he's not really a mayor of anything...i choose this name because no matter where we are or who we're with he knows EVERYONE!...the kid has like 2000 friends on facebook and im pretty sure he actually knows just about all of them...thats crazy talk right?!?...or does everyone have 2000 friends and im just not that cool???..haha!...

the mayor is my super awesome little cousin...and by little i mean younger cause he beats me by about an inch in the hight department...haha!...we have had plenty of "ashley and mayor days of fun over the years"...we both graduated from the same school so we had many lunches together and agree that corey is the BEST sandwich guy ever!...we're competitive with each other over everything from fantasyteevee to who's our grandmother's favorite (ps its totally me!...haha!)...he's the only one who will actually phone five with me...i could go on and on about my buddy but i'll stop here...the fact is i love him and wouldnt know what i would do with out him...hes the closest thing i have to a brother!

the real purpose of this blog is to welcome the mayor to the blogosphere!...after reading my blog for a while he decided to start his own and share with everyone 61.4% of his life...haha!...you can check him out over at never give up ...so go there now and show him some love!!!

why are boys so difficult???

clearly i have more trouble than your average 24 year old when it comes to boys...well maybe not more but def different!...i have a hard time expressing any confidence in this area due to lack of experience...but how am i going to get any experience without having confidence in myself...its an evil circle im stuck in and im not really going to discuss it too much because i think i already have...and because im not here to throw myself a pity party...all i want to do today is examine the facts...

this weekend i went out with concert guy (as mentioned in yesterday's entry)...relax it wasnt just the two of us...although i wish it was!...hehe...it was concert guy, a few of his friends, wet hair girl and me...we went to v lounge in new brunswick...got lost going there and coming home...danced the night away...and had tons of fun!!!

as the night went on i came to the realization that concert guy probably sees me as a friend only...ugh...i had such high hopes for this one...there was ZERO flirting going on...not even things that i pretend are flirting even though they're really not...haha!...

i drove everyone there and he didnt even sit in the front seat...and it would make perfect sense for him to sit in the front because 1) he was the only boy and 2) hes like 10 feet tall (okay maybe not 10 feet but he is tall)...why would he want to sit in the back?...actually now that i think about it they probably planned that for reasons that have nothing to do with me and everything to do with the fact that i dont think they wanted to sit next to wet hair girl...oh well...but still no front seat...haha!...

another thing...i am a freakin awesome dancer! (i dont want to sound conceded or anything like that but its true)...i was whipping out some of my best moves and yet not once the whole night did he dance with me...maybe i was too good...yeah lets say that...haha!...at least on the way home he said how awesome i am about a million times...i dont think any of them were expecting me to be that good...i love the shock value...=)

so anyway i have decided that if concert guy just wants to be friends then thats okay...im done over analyzing every little move...if something happens great...if not oh well...its not any different from any other time in my life ive had a school girl crush on a boy...

my situation is what it is...its silly to dwell on it...i mean i passed pathetic a long time ago...now its just whatever this is who i am deal with it...so im moving on from constantly feeling sorry for myself...things will work out for me one day...but for now im going to be happy being just who i am! =)

dance class!

yay!!! finally im back in dance class!!!

the first class was last week...so much fun! we did all kinds of old school stuff and turns and time steps and salsa and just about everything else...i dont think i can express in words how much i really missed it!

after the studio closed my life became pretty boring...i went to work...came home...went to sleep...woke up and did the same thing the next day...ugh...so lame right...not only was i not in dance class but i wasnt seeing my friends as often as i used to...because they were my dance friends i would see them in class and it would be so easy to make plans for the weekend...but now we barely see each other...and i miss them!...so now that im back in class my life is slightly less boring...now i can say "i went to dance class monday night!"...and hopefully ill get to hang out with the lifers more often!!!...

tonight is the second class and i cant wait to get there!...im still super tired from lack of sleep this weekend but it doesnt matter...dance class trumps everything...even an extra hour of sleep...=)

oh and ps...sat night i went to a loungey/cluby place with the train friends...concert guy totally thinks im an awesome dancer!...and to that i say "please, i dont mess around...when i say im good...i mean im good!"...=)

happy 100th post to me!!!

yay!!!...i finally made it all the way to 100...(and yet i dont feel a day over 24...haha!!!)

i wish i had some type of AWESOME story to share for this monumentous blog posting...and if i wait around for one to happen who knows when i would be making this entry...so instead i just have some odds and ends for your reading enjoyment! =)

concert guy~> i am more confused than ever with him...this past weekend he texted me to see what i was doing...he said he was gonna be at one place and then going to another place after that...so i said im going to dinner with my sister but i will def meet him later...after dinner i texted him to find out is he was at place 1 or 2...i got no responce...wtf?!?...whats going on???...why would he invite me out and then not tell me where he was...thats weird right...or no...i dont know...i wish i could just say hey concert guy lets go on a date...but i cant because i cant let things get awkward...i still have to take the 713 and see him everymorning...uh oh...i hope hes not thinking the same thing...im sure hes not...haha...

my phone~> my trusty voyager is now broken...the hinge cracked so now when i open it to text (or write in my blog) the top flops all over the place...its really annoying...everything still works so its not life altering but im still really upset...haha...at least i can get a new one at the end of june...only 3 months to go...

sytycd~> there is a brand new format headed our way for season 7...im kind of excited about it...they needed to do something after the joke that was season 6...this topic will probably get its own entry so i wont go on too much about it...

backstreet boys~> little sis and i are going on a bsb cruise!!!...ahhhhhhh!!!!...its not until december so i have pleanty of time to talk about it...im sooo excited!...its like a dream come true! =)

birthday~> the big two five is quickly approaching (in 37 days to be exact)...i cant wait to go on my big disney trip!!!...i feel like ive been planing it forever...but its almost here and i am super excited to celebrate there!...also i've been thinking about having another party...a local one so everyone whos not going to disney with me and still celebrate...as far as im concerned there can NEVER be too much celebrating!!!

well i think thats it for now...i'll check in again soon...i promise!