happy 100th post to me!!!

yay!!!...i finally made it all the way to 100...(and yet i dont feel a day over 24...haha!!!)

i wish i had some type of AWESOME story to share for this monumentous blog posting...and if i wait around for one to happen who knows when i would be making this entry...so instead i just have some odds and ends for your reading enjoyment! =)

concert guy~> i am more confused than ever with him...this past weekend he texted me to see what i was doing...he said he was gonna be at one place and then going to another place after that...so i said im going to dinner with my sister but i will def meet him later...after dinner i texted him to find out is he was at place 1 or 2...i got no responce...wtf?!?...whats going on???...why would he invite me out and then not tell me where he was...thats weird right...or no...i dont know...i wish i could just say hey concert guy lets go on a date...but i cant because i cant let things get awkward...i still have to take the 713 and see him everymorning...uh oh...i hope hes not thinking the same thing...im sure hes not...haha...

my phone~> my trusty voyager is now broken...the hinge cracked so now when i open it to text (or write in my blog) the top flops all over the place...its really annoying...everything still works so its not life altering but im still really upset...haha...at least i can get a new one at the end of june...only 3 months to go...

sytycd~> there is a brand new format headed our way for season 7...im kind of excited about it...they needed to do something after the joke that was season 6...this topic will probably get its own entry so i wont go on too much about it...

backstreet boys~> little sis and i are going on a bsb cruise!!!...ahhhhhhh!!!!...its not until december so i have pleanty of time to talk about it...im sooo excited!...its like a dream come true! =)

birthday~> the big two five is quickly approaching (in 37 days to be exact)...i cant wait to go on my big disney trip!!!...i feel like ive been planing it forever...but its almost here and i am super excited to celebrate there!...also i've been thinking about having another party...a local one so everyone whos not going to disney with me and still celebrate...as far as im concerned there can NEVER be too much celebrating!!!

well i think thats it for now...i'll check in again soon...i promise!

i need to take flirting 101

hello there blog readers!

i have decided that i really need to learn how to flirt...i am clueless...and whats worse is i dont even think i would be able to tell if someone was flirting with me...this is def a life skill that i am laking...it would be helpful in accomplishing some of my boy related goals...dont you think so? i do!...haha!...

of course there's a story to go along with this new plan that took me WAY too long to come up with...(flirting...so easy...why didnt i think of it sooner???...haha!)

i have been hanging out with concert guy a lot lately (and by a lot i mean we hung out once like a month ago and then 3 nights in a row this week)...these past few times we were together i couldnt tell if he was flirting with me or not...lets examine the clues shall we...

1) he always makes a point to ask me to sit next to him

2) one night when i was leaving i went to say goodbye with the standard semi air kiss on the cheek...ya know just mwah and back off (this was my plan of action based on how he was saying goodnight to everyone else)...but he choose to go with the extended hug option after the semi air kiss on the cheek...(does this one even make any sense???)...the reason it makes the list is because thats the way i great or depart someone i care about...not just some train friend...AND i was the only one to get the extended hug...

3) saturday night concert guy told wet hair girl that his friend had a crush on her...before the friend came wet hair girl was getting nervous (which didnt really make a whole lot of sense because she lives with her boyfriend)...so concert guy said just relax and flirt with him a little...so she said i havent flirted with anyone in so long i dont know what to do (big lies...she flirts with all the boys all the time)...so concert guy was like its easy you can just touch his thigh, it means you're into him...and as he said it he was touching MY thigh!...the following was going on in my head: oh.mygod...really?!?...is he really touching my leg right now???...oh no what does my face look like? shocked im sure...good thing its dark so no one can see the bright red color im probably turning...i must keep my reaction under controll...lol...(wow am i a nut case or what?!?...haha)...instead of freaking out in my mind i should have said something clever...but clearly i couldnt think of anything...so anyway after the fact i started thinking was he doing that because he really was flirting with me???...he even said hey retard THIS means im flirting with you...OR was i simply just used as an example because i was sitting next to him (which brings us back to point number 1...haha)...im sure its the later of the 2 but it may not be...ya know...

4) well thats really all i got...there may have been other things but like i said im not the best at reading the flirt...haha!

as you can tell im a mess...if i was given a flirting test right now i would probably get a zero...haha...i need help kids...so if anyone out there knows of some type of flirting class i really need it...cause the more i hang out with concert guy the more intense the silly crush i have on him gets...i cant let another one slip away...i refuse!

wishy washy no more

at the time of my last post i was on the fence about concert guy...but now im off the fence and 100% in school girl crush mode...haha...also thanks to wet hair girl (and some facebook stalking...haha) i am now about 95% sure that my speculation is FALSE!!!...

so what does all this mean???...well nothing really yet...but there is a plan...so far everytime wet hair girl and i have come up with a plan reguarding concert guy it has worked...so lets hope this plan works too!!! would you like to know what the plan is??? well im gonna tell you no worries...haha...but first lets rewind a bit...before we really even met concert guy and wet hair girl would always say to me things like"i want you to date him" and "i would love to set you guys up"...i say no objections here!...so the plan is for her to start saying those types of things to him about me when they take the train home together and im not around...its almost perfect because i avoid any awkwardness and the seed gets planted in his head that hey im available...okay its totally lame but who cares right...at least its something...fingers crossed...haha!

also (this doesnt really have anything to do with the plan but i thought i would share anyway) i just realized today that i knew who concert guy was way before the train and way before the concert...when i was in college i worked at a summer day camp..this camp was located at a swim club...guess who was a lifeguard at the swim club...thats right concert guy...how weird is that???...i knew him before i knew him...i still cant get over it...

well thats it for now...let me know what you think...

untill next time happy blogging!!!

eh...maybe not...

so last week i was all kinds of excited over the idea of concert guy and the fact that i stepped up and actually talk to him...that was huge for me...but now that i think about it the chances of him turning from fobo to bofo are slim to none...if my speculation is correct then there is really nothing i can do that would make him want to date me...too bad for me...

of course i still want to be friends with concert guy...so far he seems like a good guy and i would probably have tons of fun with him if we were to hang out outside of the train...and he would be good to keep around if i need a wedding date in the future...ya know...hopefully we become closer friends...and maybe just maybe (even if my speculation is true) he wouldnt mind helping a friend out in the josie grossie department...that would be awesome...hey my deadline is quickly approaching so i dont have much time left...i'll have to work fast...haha...concert guy will just have to go on the accelerated program like bff did last summer (i felt like i knew him for years after just 1 month...lol...)...

so in closing...maybe i should start picking boys to crush on that i actually have a chance with...or maybe i should stop looking all together...they say it comes when you least expect it...but i dont care if i expect it or not...as long as its soon!!!

new guy is out...

...and concert guy is in! (or did i call him train guy???...i cant remember...haha)

so after all that drama that was my summer crush on new guy i think im totally over it now (almost 6 months later)...of course when f.u.n. and bff talk about him i say things like "did he tell you he secretly loves me?"...and then laugh...haha...to be honest i never had any real hope for a relationship there...i just thought he was hot!...well i think i'll always think hes hot...hehe...=)...he was kinda like a reach bofo...almost like a reach school when your applying for college...ya know...you really want to go there and you dont think you'll get in but you apply anyway...so yeah thats that but i still cant wait for the summer to come rolling around again just so i can catch another glimpse of him...(does that sound creepy???)...

now onto concert/train guy...in case you missed it (or forgot) concert guy is the cute guy who takes the 713 in the morning and said heeeyyy to me at beatstock this summer...ever since the concert i have been wanting to say hi to him at the train but i was too scared...(hey after what happened whenever i tried to talk to new guy can you blame me?...haha)... then i made some new train friends and every morning we would chat...mostly about the fact that we wanted to make concert guy our friend...finally a few weeks ago the weird lady who talks to us in the morning saw concert guy on the train home so she sat next to him and made friends...perfect! now we had an in...and yet i was still scared to say hi (wow what a loser...haha)...but everything changed on monday feb 1...a new month, a new out look on life...the weird lady said thats it im going over there...so she went and we followed...so yay i have officially met train guy and im no longer afraid to talk to him...even better on tuesday none of my other train friends were there so i talked to concert guy all by myself AND i invited him to meet us after work on friday!...

its just baby steps but im proud of myself!...i cant wait until friday...lets see what happens!!! =)

secret santa

its time for my official secret santa predictions!

cort has trev
trev has cort
britt has steph
steph has meg
meg has kate
kate has ty
ty has me
i have britt

we'll see if im right this year!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

obsession

i have noticed that i become addicted to things pretty easily (not bad things...no worries)...it could be a tv show or a book or a game or even blogging...i find myself trying to squeeze in every possible second to satisfy ny need to do whatever it is im obsessing over at the moment...and then after a while i start to lose interest...lets take a look at some of these things...

blogging~> last year around october novemberish i was blogging almost everyday...how was it possible that i had so much to say?...i probably didnt have anything interesting to write...i just put down anything so i could say i blogged for the day...i was obsessed so i did it...i had to...but now i kinda just write when something comes to me...i dont try to find stuff to talk about...its just what comes out...

games~> these addictions dont last as long as some of my other ones but if i find a game i really like i feel like i constantly need to play it...i started playing bejewled blitz on facebook and loved it...i even downloaded it to my ipod so i could play it on the train...so i pretty much play it all the time...i think im almost over it but not yet...there have been many games like this over the years...

tv shows on dvd~> if i start watching a series on dvd thats all ill watch...all my other shows fall by the waste side...there have been times that i have stayed up way later than i should have because ill say oh ill just watch one more episode...and then 3 episodes later im still saying just 1 more...when i was a senior in college i watched all 10 seasons of friends in about a week over my winter break...thats crazy!...i mean really...who does that?!?...right now i am obsessed with survivor!...right after last season was over it was on sale on i tunes so i bought it...i never really got around to watching it but then the other day i decided hey why dont i watch some of this again...of course i couldnt stop until the season was over...(yay jt!...he's totally my survivor fobo!)...now i want to buy another season...but i dont know which one...anyone have any suggestions???...

twilight~> last fall i was completley obsessed with twilight...i gave up my morning nap to read...i couldnt wait to get out of work just so i could continue reading...and then the movie was coming out and i need to know everything there was to know about it...i absolutely LOVED all things twilight related...i even blogged about it every tuesday...then after all the hype died down i kinda forgot about it...of course i went to see new moon on opening day this year but i wasnt nearly as excited for it...so of course im still a fan of the whole twilight saga but im not going crazy about it anymore...

backstreet boys~> this is my longest lasting obsession...of course its more intense at times than others but i think its the one obsession i will never get rid of...ive been a fan since 7th grade what can i say...they are my all time fav and ALWAYS will be!!!

bad week in reality tv

it seems to happen every season but unfortunalty this was the week that all of my favs were sent packin...=(...it all started with last weeks survivor samoa...lets take a look back shall we...

upset #1~> survivor samoa~> i had a hard time picking a fav this season cause lets face it no one can compare to jt from last season (rumor has it that hes gonna be on next season villian vs heroes)...anyway after a few episodes erik started to grow on me and became my fave...things were looking good for him...her found an immunity idol...he had a tight alliance of 4...he was strong and smart...and he seemed to be leading the group...buddytv ranked him number 1 going into the episode...then all of a sudden there was a merge and everyone decided to blindside poor erik...i guess ill now root for brett...

upset#2~> dwts~> can someone please explaain to me why kelly osbourne is still in but aaron carter got voted out on tuesday night...she had 1 good week and then it was all downhill from there so is terrible...why is she still in???...aaron was so good!...i think some of the judges (carrie ann) were way too tough on him...and why did veiwers not like him so much...i just dont get it...aaron should still be in the competition...i am so over this show...unless kevin richardson shows up on the roster for next season i dont think i will be tuning in...

upset#3 ~> sytycd~> first of all this is not the best season yet...and i think it cane on way to soon after season 5...they are trying way too hard be great for the fall but in doing so they are losing everything that makes this show great...so after saying that i think it was a big mistake sending peter home last night...while i think jakob is by far the best this season, peter was totally my favorite!...also i think he had the best solo of the night (very smart tapping a capella)...what was so great about ryan's or kevin's solo that kept them there over peter? huh?...i was actually a little embarrassed for ryan when he attempted that back flip...it was just awful...and another thing that gets me fired up is that people are all kinds of upset that karen and kevin were in the bottom...i didnt think their dance was that awesome...i thought it was a little boring...not as bad as nathan and mollee...oh god...that salsa was horrend!...they def should have been in the bottom...so anyway...im really upset about peter...i really hope s6 turns out like s4...its quickly headed down that road...oh boy...

hopefully this week turns out better than the past week...it all starts with survivor tonight...

please dont ask me

today at work we were chit chattin per usual and the the following exchange happened:

the group mom: i tell my daughter if someone takes a sip of her drink to just give it to them...shes gonna get mono if she shares

cool girl: i bet you tell her not to kiss the boys too

group mom: thats right! shes only 12 shes not gonna be kissin any boys anytime soon!

cool girl: i think she will...how old were you when you had your first kiss?

group mom: oh i was old...after high school...

cool girl: what?!? i dont believe you!

group mom: its true...i was a tom boy...lets ask sports guy how old he was

cool girl: hes gonna say he was 9 haha!

this continued on for a while...and the whole time i was thinking oh god please dont let them ask me...thankfully they didnt...and that should have been the end of it...i should have just been happy i dodged that bullet...but was i ? of course not!...

i kept thinking about what would have happened if they did ask...what was i gonna say???...i could have lied and made up some random age but im not good with lying so that out...i would have had to say something clever like "i dont know yet" or "hold on, let me check my crystal ball"...and if they caught on then good for them but if not oh well...cause no way would i have been able to come right out and say "ive never been kissed"...that is an extremely hard sentence to say for me...i dont think i have ever sad it out loud...i always kinda allude to it by saying things like "i'm josie grossie"...its even hard to write on here where im pretty sure everyone who actually reads this already knows that pathetic little fact about me...i dont know why its so tough...maybe its because its something i want sooo bad but cant seem to get...oh well...*sigh*...

well anyway im gonna keep my spirits high...it will happen one day...its gotta...so there is no use being depressed about it...and ill keep my options open...=)

p.s. new guy will be back in jersey during his winter break...bff has plans to hang out with him...i told bff if im not invited out with them that night then no more free dinners!...so lets all keep our fingers crossed!...haha!!!

how i almost met howie d!

first i would like to start of by apologizing to my little blog for the neglect i have been showing...i didnt mean to...the time just slipped away soo fast...and i tried to write a review of "this is us" (the newest backstreet boys album) 3 times and they all got deleted so i guess it just wasnt meant to be...in cause you were wondering i think the album is pretty freakin awesome!...everyone should go buy it right now!!!...haha...

okay so let me get to my story which is also backstreet related...what can i say? its been 12 years and im still obsessed...i just cant help it!...haha!...

last weekend (not the one that just passed, the one before that)...i traveled with little sis down to charlotte nc to visit our little tiny cousins...or at least thats what we told people...we did visit them and stay at their house but the real reason for going to charlotte was to go to gravedigger's ball featuring none other than the backstreet boys!!!!!...

to our surprise the princess met up with us and was super excited to go to the concert...(its surprising cause shes not as big of a fan as little sis and i are...back in the day she didnt even have a fav so we assigned her one...haha)...whats even more surprising is that prince charming(the princess' fiance) came as well...i think they were more interested in the halloween party aspect of it...but whatever it doesnt matter...before the show i had to warn prince charming that he's going to see a whole new crazy side to me...haha...but then at the show the royal couple didnt stand by us so its all good...

the concert was sooo good!...the only complaint i have is they only sang 6 songs...what the heck?!?...well at least its double the amount the sang at beatstock...right?...and who am i kidding i would have wanted them to sing more if they sung 50 songs...i can never get enough...

so the next day little sis and i woke up super early and my uncle brought us to the airport...we got in line at the check in and we were chit chatin per usual and thats when i saw him...HOWIE WAS STANDING ABOUT 10 FEET AWAY FROM ME CHECKING INTO THE SAME FLIGHT I WAS ABOUT TO...on the inside i screamed...AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!...but on the outside i grabbed little sis and said "oh my god...its howie!"...after that my brain pretty much stopped working...we were freaking out!...its like a dream come true...

we proceeded to check in and then we went to the gate...little sis decided to go up to him...but when we go to the gate he wasnt there...so we waited for him to come over...when he finally did i couldnt move it was like i forgot how to walk or talk ya know basic everyday functions seemed impossible for me to complete...lol...so little sis left me behind and went over to talk to him...but as soon as she got there they started boarding...so she only had time to get his autograph...its still awesome...the only thing i cant understand is why were we the only 2 people on the whole plane who knew who he was???...

so of course i chicken out again...what is wrong with me???...when i tell people the story they always say "i cant believe you didnt talk to him"...and to that i say "really? really? you cant believe it? do we not remember the lack of words exiting my mouth whenever new guy was around? if i couldnt say anything to some stupid lifeguard what makes you think i would be able to say anything to my number 1 all time fav??? "...

i really wish i went over to him with little sis but i didnt and whats done is done...*sigh*...but its still pretty cool just saying he was on my fight!!! yay!!!